The Girl Who is Allergic to the Sun.

Chapter 13

The sadness and guilt I'm feeling right now is unfathomable. Damn. Why didn't she tell me? Wala ba siyang tiwala sa akin? Why? And I don't understand why she's pushing me to Morgan.

I now already know about her disease. I can't help but punch the wall because of my frustration. Napasabunot ako sa ulo ko. I didn't even feel that I'm on the floor already, crying. She's gone... My love is gone...

I know within myself that I can't fulfill my promise to her. How the fuck can I not shed a single tear when she's gone?! She's fucking dead. I sighed deeply trying to calm myself as I remember what happened.

Doctors rushed towards her, she's barely breathing. God, please help her. I know she's strong. She can do this.

The doctor said that they'll take care of her, and I need to go out for a moment. On my way out, my sense awakened when I felt a stinging pain on my left cheek.

My tear immediately fell. I look up, only to find tita crying and shaking. Tito's behind her staring coldly at me. I can't blame them. In fact, I'd do the same if I'm on their shoe.

"Hindi ba sabi ko huwag ka ng makikipagkita sa anak ko?!" she said angrily. I look down, I can't take her stares. If only glares could kill, I'm already dead by now.

"Sorry po tita, I can't help it. I just want to know if your daughter's fine."

"Leave! I don't want to see you! Even your shadow!" she murmured.

I nodded apologetically. I bowed before them before I leave. I guess I'll go here again tommorow when they're gone for a while. I don't wanna add fuel on the fire.

I don't want to disobey them but fuck, Tzuyuzumi's involved here. I can't just do nothing. The least I could do is to stay by her side.

I guess I need to go home. I'm tired. I need to rest, or else my body will command itself to rest. I rode a cab, because I know I can't drive safely and properly.

I woke up the next day and prepared myself. I checked the time it's 9am, her parents is not on the hospital anymore cause they'll be heading home to rest and get some things for her.

I ride a taxi. While on my way to the hospital I can't help but to heaved a sigh. I don't know but I feel like something's off. I told the driver to drive faster. And thankfully, he did.

When I reached the hospital I rushed to Tzuyuzumi's room. Only to find it out empty. My knees weakened. No this can't be. I ask the nurse on the reception. But her answer shattered my heart into pieces.

"Sir, she died last night. They cremated her corpse and I overheard that the family's heading to California alongside with the corpse of the patient."

Tangina. Nanlambot ang tuhod ko, umabot sa puntong napaupo na ako sa sahig. Paulit-ulit akong umiling. No, this can't be happening. There's no way that this is happening.

I felt hot liquid roll down to my face. Shit. She's gone. She didn't make it. I don't care about the people staring at me.

I don't know how I'm able to leave that place. I went home straight away. I wanna rest. I need rest. This day's gonna be long.

The color I'm living for in this life vanished away. I don't think I can find someone as colorful as her. I'm not gonna be happy again. Well I will but not genuinely. Not as genuine when she's still here. Not as genuine as she makes me feel.

I cried on my room, until there's no tears left. Damn. This is my fault. I can't help but to blame myself. Shit.
That explains why whenever I ask her out she always refused.

Why didn't I see the sign?! I'm such an asshole. From that day on, I hated my existence. I don't think I'd be able to get up from this downfall. I refuse to. I don't want to.

But knowing Tzuyuzumi, she won't like this. She said I should be happy coz I deserve that. I hope she's okay now. I know she will and she is.

From this day on I'll promise myself not to marry anyone else except for her.  Its Tzuyuzumi Soliel Dela Fuente or none. If it's not her, then who?

I need to make myself proud, my family, and my love of course. I can't stay like this forever but I'll just give myself time to mourn for my love.

"Rest in peace, my love" I uttered as another batch of tears found its way out of my eyes.