Winter Flower

Chapter 9: Big Tour Big Changes?

(Back to Haruna's point of view)

I woke up the next morning only to find Namjoon not in bed with me. I sat up realizing the house was quieter than usual and got out of bed and got dressed. I walked out of the bedroom and closed the door.

"Namjoon? Are you home?" I called from the top of the stairs and got no answer. I went to the bedroom next to ours and knocked on the door.

"Tae? Jungkook?" No answer. I went to the room across the hall. "Jin! Yoongi!" again, no answer. I knocked on the last door, almost expecting the same result. "Jimin? Hobi?"

Where were they? I walked downstairs and down to the basement where they usually rehearse. They weren't there either. I hurried back upstairs to my and Namjoon's bedroom and grabbed my phone to see if there was a text message that came through. As soon as I picked it up my phone buzzed-- an incoming text from Namjoon.

"Hey baby," it said. "The meeting with the record label is running pretty long. I'm sorry I didn't text you earlier. We'll be back home as soon as we can."

I text him back. "Ok, I was wondering where you guys were. Text me if you'll be home for lunch. I love you."

I went back downstairs to the kitchen and made myself something to eat and poured a cup of coffee. I sat at the kitchen table and ate, looking at my phone. My heart dropped when I came across an article: Bangtan Sonyeondan to go on a world tour.

And there it was. A tour. I knew deep down that I wasn't going to be able to be with my boys, especially Namjoon. This would be the first time in months we've ever been apart. I tried to busy myself with my chores for that day, even doing more than usual. I couldn't help but think that this was it. That nagging thought in the back of my head. "I'm never going to see Namjoon again."

It wasn't until almost 5:00 pm until the guys came home. I was busy in the kitchen making dinner.

"Haruna, we're home!" Jungkook called.

"Welcome home, boys," I called from the kitchen. "I'm just making dinner."

Namjoon came into the kitchen and hugged me from behind. "It's so good to be home with you, baby." I turned around in his arms and wrapped my arms around him, nuzzling my head in his neck. I wanted to cry.

"I'm so happy you're home," I sniffled.

"Baby? What's wrong?" He whispered. I shook my head and smiled.

"Nothing baby. I just missed you."

We all sat down at the kitchen table once dinner was made. I looked around the table at the guys and smiled. "I saw the news. A tour, how exciting." They all looked at me. "When do you guys leave?"

"Three months," Jin said. "We still have a lot of rehearsing to do."

"How long are you going to be gone?"

"We'll be gone for four months," Taehyung said with a mouthful of kimchi and rice. My heart sank. I looked over at Namjoon and smiled softly.

"Wow, that big of a tour, huh?" I asked. They all nodded.

"You gonna be ok with us gone for that long?" Jungkook asked.

"Oh yeah," I said with false confidence. "I'll just be here taking care of the house," I stood up and started to gather the dirty dishes. "Maybe Lucy will be in town."

Taehyung stood up and stopped me from cleaning. "Here, Haruna let us do that. You've been cleaning all day."

"Thanks, Tae," I said and went into the living room to grab my book. I looked out the window and saw that the sun was still shining and went outside. Jimin must have seen me and followed me outside.

"Are you ok, Haruna?" He asked me as he sat down on the bench next to me.

I nodded. "I'll be alright, Jimini. Just tired a bit today." I looked at him and smiled.

"You're not, I can tell. It's about us going on tour, isn't it?"

"Is it that obvious?"

"Yeah, I saw it on your face when we came home. We're not going to be gone that long."

"Probably not, but it will feel like a lifetime for me. I just don't want to lose him, Jimini."

"Ah, ok. So that's what you're afraid of? Namjoon running off with a fan? It won't happen. He loves you too much."

"What are you guys talking about?" We turned around and saw Namjoon standing in the doorway. Jimin stood up and walked over to him.

"She's worried about us going on tour."

I turned back to my book and heard the back door open and then close. Namjoon sat next to me. "You ok?" he asked me.

"I don't know. Four months is a long time to be away from each other."

"I know. I tried to see if you can come, but Bang PD said no. Since we're together he said it might upset the fans."

"That's fucking bullshit," I said as I sat my book to my side. Namjoon looked at me. "So I'm just the cleaning lady to him?"

"I guess so." I wanted to scream. Just a cleaning lady. "We know you're so much more than that." He grabbed my hand and intertwined his fingers with mine. "You know as well as everyone else in this house that you're my girl." I nodded, not wanting to let go of his hand. "Let's go shopping tomorrow. Just you and me. It's been a long time since we've had a day to ourselves."

"That sounds nice," I said as I looked behind us at the kitchen window seeing the rest of the guys watching us. "What are they doing?"

"Being nosy."

I looked over and saw Taehyung's mouth move: "where's the ring?"

Namjoon gave him a look that said "Shut up" and they all moved away from the window laughing. "It's like children, you know?"

I stood up and walked to the door. The sun was starting to set and it was getting a little colder. "What ring?"

Namjoon followed me to the door and opened it for me. "It's nothing," he said. "Let's go and watch a movie, Haru. It's time to relax." We walked through the kitchen seeing Jimin getting the drinks and Jin holding a big bowl of popcorn. "What's the movie tonight?"

"UHF," Jungkook said as Namjoon and I sat on the couch under a blanket, Jin and Jungkook sitting on the recliners on either side of us and Hobi, Taehyung, Yoongi, and Jimin sitting on the floor in front of us. Once we were all settled, Hobi grabbed the tv remote and pushed play. I looked around the room at the boys. I was just happy they were home.