Always Him

Chapter 10 - Staying At Lacey's For A While...

So I made my way to Lacey's. I had to get the bus towards the town centre, then walk a few blocks past the large memorial statue outside the court houses. I'm pretty sure it takes me around half an hour altogether to make the trip. Before I let myself in, because I have a key, I text her to say I'm coming through the door just in case she's got company or something like that. I didn't want to intrude. That would be e trembly rude. She texts back, "don't be an idiot! Get yourself in here". I'm glad she said that, because right now I need her. "Hey girl, hey" she shouts as I walk towards her. I mumble a quiet hello back to her. Her cheery smile dropped off her face, like she'd seen a murder happen. "Tell me everything, spare no detail and no matter what it is I'll continue to love you for it" she blurts out in a rush. Where should I start?

"Well we were caught up in a moment and everything happened suddenly. I just couldn't stop it. He was just so... Never mind. I've ruined it now though, haven't i?" I ask my best friend. "Listen, the only way to find out is to text him, although I know you don't want to. Give it till tomorrow? In the mean time you can stay here and we can have a much needed sleepover. I'll text your parents, they can drop your stuff off right? I think I gave them my new address... This is what happens when you move into a flat by yourself, everything changes" Lacey mumbles on. I'm barely listening. I stare at my phone screen, waiting. I hope. I pray that he'll text me and everything will be fine.

Lacey's p.o.v

I brought some pillows and blankets out for Ana and I. Ana seems distant, not herself. I smile at her and as her which movie first; frozen, Bridget Jones diary, one direction this is us, or a Cinderella story. All my favourites. She just stares blankly at me. I think I'll put frozen on first, maybe she'll perk up and will be happier for the next movie. I watch Olaf, the snowman singing that catchy song about summer. How can a snowman love all things hot? I can't help but giggle! From the corner of my eye, I see Ana stare out of the window at late night traffic. She's waiting for him. I have to help her but I'm unsure how.

After we finished frozen, I put on the one direction movie. Ana sort of became less distant, and started to smile. I've never been so happy than that moment she saw Niall Horan run on stage. I sighed with relief. I was getting my best friend back. As we watched, I saw the fangirl in her come back. She was smiling uncontrollably and screaming, as was I. We were having fun for the first time since she got here. Thank you Niall Horan! We continued to watch movies and eat the pizza I ordered. She had forgotten the whole Luke problem. Lacey fell asleep half way through Bridget Jones diary. I don't blame her, she's had a terrible day. I switch the tv off, pull the blankets over Ana's shoulders and kissed her forehead before leaving the room and turning the light off. I walked towards my room, I don't think I've been this happy to go to sleep before. It was 3am and I was extremely tired. I lay down and snuggled into the blankets, finally!

Ana's p.o.v

Subconsciously I hear people outside Lacey's ground floor studio flat. I can hear the traffic building up, and people honking at each other. I can hear them shouting crude words and phrases that make me cringe. I can't bear to hear these things anymore. I open one eye to check my phone. I wake the screen and stare at the screensaver for about 10 minutes. It's a picture of him and I. Wow. I never realised I missed him this much. I finally unlock my phone and read through my notifications. My eyes scan through them. I check Facebook first. I've been tagged in videos of a cat playing the piano, and random fights. I really don't want to see this anymore. I check Twitter, my notifications have gone crazy. There's fans asking me why Luke is writing tweets about being a screw up, feeling useless and not being in the mood to go to the studio. I Ignore these, there must be an explanation. What I'm hoping for is messages from him, but there's nothing at all. Not even a hello. I lock my phone and throw it to the other end of the sofa. I'm not sure whether I'm angry, frustrated, depressed or heart broken. I think it's a mix of all. I sigh and put my arms over my face, I don't think I can get up and face the world today.

"Good morning sleepy head!" I hear from behind me. I remove one arm to reveal my right eye, squinting at Lacey. "There's nothing about it" I grumble. I think she ignored my input because she was still cheery. "So what are we doing today? Shopping, some lunch and catch a movie tonight? Well that's what I was thinking anyways. What do you want to do?" I stare at the ceiling. "I don't want to do anything, except maybe die because my life is over" I sigh. "Dude, stop being so negative! Smile because it's a brand new day. A day to explore the shops for something new to wear to the party we're invited to tomorrow night!" She smiles as she reveals an invitation addressed to the pair of us. I roll my eyes. "Which stupid positive human wants me to see them tomorrow then?" I ask in a monotone voice. I can't believe she expects me to go to a party when I'm like this, but on the other hand, it could be a good idea for me to do something positive... "Calum is inviting you, and me of course! He's so dreamy, I can't get him out of my head. I don't have a crush on him or anything though" she quickly corrects herself. I can't help but smile. We all know she likes Calum but will not admit it, even to me.

*The Mall*
"Why do I have to wear this?" I ask Lacey, trying a revealing dress on. The cleavage shows too much for my liking, I'd prefer to be wrapped up in one of his hoodies and some jogging bottoms. The dress comes half way up my thigh, I feel uncomfortable. This isn't me. "Because we want you to look beautiful, and I think it suits you" she tries to convince me. "I'm not wearing this Lacey, I can't wear this" I beg her. "You'll get used to it, stop worrying" she tells me as I start to change back into my black skinny jeans, black one direction Tshirt and black Nirvana hoodie. Why am I wearing all black? Because I'm in a black part of my life. Because the light of my life has been ripped away from me; Luke. I throw the dress on top of the basket Lacey has and I walk out of the store. I need to keep myself busy. I walk as far and as fast as my legs will carry me. I feel like all eyes are on me. I need to escape this feeling of insecurity. I walk into a cute little coffee shop in the corner of the mall. Maybe I can get away from all the drama and relax a while in here. I sit at one of the tables, it looks like a table for two. I pick up the menu and scroll my eyes through the wide range of drinks they offer. There's so many to choose from. Some of these are really expensive and I need to save my money... Maybe just a Coca Cola will do me. I walk up to the counter and place my order. The lovely lady said that it will be brought over to my table so I went to sit back down. I sat there staring at my lock screen on my phone for a while. I wasn't even thinking straight, I was daydreaming until the lady put my glass on the table and smiled at me. "Thank you" I smiled back and she walked away. I was so busy thinking that I didn't realise that the radio in the shop was playing voodoo doll. Great. This is all I need now, isn't it? I put my head on the table and tried to ignore the sweet sound of Luke's pre-recorded voice. Why was this happening to me? I mumbled some noises under my breath and lifted my head to see a pair of cute twin girls. Their ginger hair in pigtails and huge grins on their faces. "Hi, can we ask you something" the one on the left said. "Of course" I smiled at them. They were so adorable! "Can we have your autograph and a picture please?" Said the one on the right. Wait. What? Autograph? Picture? Why? "Um.. Sure" I replied hesitantly. They smiled even wider for the picture and I signed pieces of paper for them. "Why would you want these girls?" I asked them. "Because you're Luke's girlfriend and we love 5 Seconds Of Summer" they cheered in chorus. I'm not Luke's girlfriend... We were friends... This is messed up. I need to get out of here again. I rush out of the coffee shop and look at my phone. The notifications for Twitter are blowing up... Girls know I'm here and they think I'm Luke's girlfriend. I have to leave. I dial Lacey's number and wait for her to pick up. It rings, and rings, and rings, and rings... Pick up Lacey!!!

A/N - sorry it's been a while since I've updated. Many things going on right now. Hope you like this chapter because it was fun to write. Like, vote, comment. Love you guys xx