DERANGER - SEULRENE

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you spend the entire day mostly lying on the bed with seulgi. you didn't even bother to turn your phone on, not wanting anyone to disturb the little paradise you are in.

it was when you feel that you have satisfied your rebellious side you decide to leave her apartment.

enough with the plays.

it's about time you face the reality you've been trying to escape since last night.

despite seulgi's words still echoing in your head, you know it won't be that easy for you. you don't even know where to start yet.

you're too confused with the turn out of the events. you don't know what to decided yet.

so you did what you think is right; face your problems head-on and find out for yourself.

it doesn't matter which road you take. either choice will cause you suffering.

---

donghae's waiting in your apartment when you arrive.

he asked where you've been. you told him you stayed in a hotel room to think.

he apologised for what he did the night before. he said he realised your brother is right, that he needs to consider you too in his plans.

he told you he'll try to make it up to you, that you don't need to say yes to his proposal yet. all he wants is for you two to talk and patch things up.

you forgive him and tell him it's okay. but you're tired and don't want to talk about last night yet.

he agrees and prepares dinner for the two of you.

the night went on with him telling how his work was. you nod and nod while you listen to him talk.

you went to bed early. he wants to make love, but you say you're not in the mood.

he understands. he hugs you to sleep instead.

you pretend to be asleep because you don't want to make him feel you'd rather be back in someone else's apartment instead.

---

days later, you reached out to your parents, telling them you need to think about the wedding first.

you mum understands but still suggests you push through with it so her friends in church would stop talking about you.

your dad reminds you that you can be engaged, but no wedding would occur unless you pass the bar.

knowing that contradicting them will result in a lengthy discussion, you keep your mouth shut.

sometimes it's better not to voice out your thoughts. either way, they'd always expect you to do as they say.

---

"donghae? what are you doing here?" you approach your lover, who's standing outside the classroom.

"surprise visiting you." he smiles, pulling you into a hug. "i took a week-long leave from work so i could spend more time with you."

"you don't need to do that." you gently pull away from his grip, knowing your students inside the classroom can see you.

"but i want to. i told you, i'll make it up to you."

that made you smile. "you could have at least messaged me. i still have class."

"i don't mind waiting here for an hour."

"you don't need to--"

"it's fine. your class is waiting for you." he gently pushes you inside the classroom. "i'll be waiting here."