What They Don't Know

Chapter Five

"Gay." Luca yells as we watch a video of guys doing that stupid dance from mean girls, Stella's favorite fucking movie.

"Luc, shut up!" Stel screams, slamming her fist into his leg. He just brushed it off and laughed at her. "Besides, you're gay for Ash."

"No, I'm in love with Ash." Luc jokes, winking at me. His hazel eyes staring into my soul. He was amazingly hot.

I've accepted the fact that I think Luca is hot. I have finally accepted it. 'Radical acceptance is the key to life' As my grandpa says. Maybe I'm bisexual? Yeah, or bi-curious? I have no clue, someone hep me?! After what happened last weekend and all my feelings, I broke everything off with Marnie for the best. I need to figure out my feelings first before bringing anyone into this mess that is my emotions, feelings and sexuality.

"Time for bed everyone!" Mom yells, waddling down the stairs into the den. We all groan and turn off the xbox. We all walk upstairs and go into our bedrooms, Luc going into the guest room and close the doors.

And now I wait...

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"You still up?" Luc says, creaking my door open.

"Yeah."

"I have to talk to you about something."

"I do too." I reply, sitting up and turning the light on. It was almost two am. "I'll go first."

"Okay man, tell me what's on your mind bro." Luc prompts me.

"I'm bi." I say, looking at the floor. He laughs and raises his head to me. His laugh halts and his face looks confused, questioning whether I was serious or not. "I'm dead serious."

"How do you know?" He asks. I sigh and tell him the only thing I can- the truth. Even if it means our friendship is ruined.

"When I'm around guys, I get... aroused. and I think they're hot. I have feelings towards them. And that night when you were drunk off your ass in Pokemon boxers, I had a dream about a guy... me kissing this guy. And I liked it. And I wish it happened in real life." I blurt out.

"A dream...?" Luca questions. I nod slowly, curious as to why he was focusing on that part. "Well, I accept you for who you are bro, just don't stare too long at my hotness."

I roll my eyes and scuff, he's such an asshole sometimes. His ego is huge. "What did you want to talk about?"

"Nothing important. Just some stupid stuff." He brushes it off, getting up and walking over to the door. "Night, bro." He says, closing my door. I lay back down and touch my lips. if only that dream were real.

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"Hey, Lana." I greet the twig in leggings. She sneers and walks faster.

"What's your problem?" I ask jogging up next to her.

She stops dead in her tracks and pokes me in the chest. "You." She spits. "Luca broke up with me because of you, you asshole." She screams and runs away, tears starting to fall down her face. I was taken back by her words and ran around the school to find Luc. I go into the weight room and find him bench pressing without a spotter.

"So you broke up with Lana because of me?" I ask, very skeptical. He looked like he was struggling but I wasn't going to help till I had answers.

"It doesn't matter, my feelings just aren't strong for her." He says. I huff and spot him. He gets up and starts heading over to the treadmill.

"Who are your feeling strong for?" I ask, feeling a little jealous.

"You can't tell?" He glares at me. stopping the treadmill. He walks right up to me, chest to chest. "You, you idiot."

"You like me?" I was stunned. He nods, going for his towel and water bottle. I was just stood in the same spot, paralyzed by his words.

"That dream wasn't a dream. That was my drunk ass letting my real feelings out. All I felt were sparks and all that bullshit. And I can tell you like me. But it's alright dude. I'm not gay. I'm just confused, obviously."

"What do you feel for me?" I demand to know.

"I don't know." Luca says, shaking his head.

"No, you know. You're just to scared to express your feelings for me!" I yell at him. "You know how you feel, I know how you feel! But guess what Luca? You're not the only one who's scared! I'm terrified. They don't give you a freaking manual to this! You just have to go with your instincts. Now, what do your instincts tell you, huh?"

"To shut you up." He angrily grumbles, rushing up to me and smashing his lips onto mine. I'm stunned for a second but quickly start to move my lips against his. He grabs my face with both hands and pulls me closer to him. I don't think either one of us knew when we should stop. We just stood there in the weight room, lost in time, dying to be as close as possible to each other.