it's Love

Whenever your ready

Joel's POV

 I still think that I'm not the kind of brother that wants to help one another It's just that I never had to deal with this before I want to help Luke but..... I can't, I do help Luke but I want to really help him not giving him water and helping him walk around, I want to help him to know I'm here for him but when he had that overdose and when he cut himself it was because of me I wasn't being a loving brother. When I go over to help Luke I hand him some water and hug him and I tell him, when your ready just tell me I'm here for you Luke don't be afraid to talk to someone ok? then he nodded his head and I told him, I loved him I.... walk away with a smile I walk in my room and put a frown on my face, I feel like he doesn't trust me why? I don't deserve to be a good brother, life has to be difficult doesn't it... had to make everything worse why am I alive right now? I want to travel back in time and show you who I really am, but I would just be telling lies, I wish I can save you from the pain 

Courtney's POV

I let go but I thought knew better, I don't know I'm so weary I understand your afraid Luke, let it breathe set it free now, I know your feeling weighed down it's all on your shoulders I tell Luke silently then I had to leave because I had just realized I was late for work I ran in the car Moriah hops in and we drive off I slept while Moriah driving me to work I've been dozing off lately and I need to straighten up I really wish I could spend time with family and Luke but I just can't I have two jobs one as a doctor and the other as an employee at Dollar tree I work every day and every hour.

Luke's POV

Sometimes I get in the way, you would never let me down, I'm deep in the darkness where it's heartless I don't know if I can make it  I'll be honest and I'm faded trapped and I feel like it ain't escaping, all these problems got me scared all this drama got me sleeping, Cause I don't know who to turn or who to trust so tell me that you will never let me down, come save me, Cause I've been in way over my head lately. I've been thinking a lot lately and I say that I feel forgotten and lost I don't even know if I can make it. I get up to get a drink of water Joel helps me and tells me when I'm ready to talk that he's here for me I nod my head then he tells me he loves me I didn't want to say anything my throat keeps getting dry, I want to put trust into my brother's hands but I'm not really sure I can trust him, Well time can heal but this won't.

Joel's POV

* 2 hours later * I get up and wondering what Luke was doing, I hear him whining in his sleep I sit next to where his feet is and I said, I'm really sorry Luke you have to suffer this pain and madness, all I can think is why is it that every time Luke gets sick and somethings happens it gets worse. I get a phone call from my mom saying how we were doing I told her that everything was fine I didn't want to tell my mom what happened she gets anxious about it, then I got a phone call from Moriah that she has to work all this month in New Mexico I'm going to miss her but anyways I want Luke to get a lot of rest and I hope he gets better soon I just can't stand seeing Luke in pain I want to say he has anxiety...... I don't like that word, Luke has feelings of nervousness and dry mouth dizziness, unable to stay still, and sometimes nausea.  his life can disappear I'm really worried about him