Only For One Night

Damaged Goods

"Is she inside?" He asked when he got out the car. "Yeah, she's inside" Spencer walked in the house with Jordan walking in behind him. "How could she do this to me? I'm sick and tired of crying and being so hurt I just need someone to take the pain away" she cried into Simone's shoulder. "I'll volunteer" Olivia opened her eyes, seeing Spencer. She slowly pulled away from the hug. Simone was shocked to see him. She looked at Jordan who looked away. "Why is he here...." Olivia whispered. " Liv... just give me 10 minutes, please? Can we go for a ride just around the block. I promise I'll bring you back" she hesitated before walking over to him. He placed his hand on her lower back, walking out of the house. "I hope they work this out. They both need each other" Jordan told his wife. "Liv loves him. She's hurting pretty bad right now but eventually she will allow him to love her again."

Olivia was seated in the passenger seat with her arms folded. Spencer was driving around, at first they were in silence until he broke it. "Liv....." he trailed off. " I feel so ugly. I don't feel human... He took that from me. He took everything... The fact is, I don't feel worthy of anything. This could've been prevented..." he clenched his teeth as tears welled up in his eyes. " I keep telling myself, forgive you. You told me you were drugged and would never cheat on me. Yeah..." Spencer pulled the car over so that he could listen carefully. "Liv, I wouldn't—" she cut him off. "You should've been there. You should've never went to her dorm room alone. When we are fighting, you don't go to someone else. I feel so little. So unloved. The fact is, I don't blame you" he looked at her. Tears were welled up in her eyes. She took a slow deep breath. Her lip began to quiver. " I love you Spencer" she said through clenched teeth as the tears started to fall uncontrollably. She looked over at him who was holding in his tears. "This hurts because I love you so much and I should've been married to you. I lost everything. Everything! Because you wanted to hurt me that night. You went to her. You went to her even when we broke up so I went back to Asher and I got punished for it" a tear fell from his eyes. " I don't remember everything but I know the sex hurt so bad. It was like rape. He strangled me many of times. Beat me many times. Made me eat off the floor like I was a dog. And all I kept thinking about was if you were going to come to save me" Spencer gripped the steering wheel and pressed his head against it. Spencer was so heartbroken to see her this way. " I hate myself more than anything because I should've just stayed. No matter what. No matter if you did go to her and actually had sex without being drugged. It would've saved me from all of the abuse" she closed her eyes "I—" she started sobbing. Spencer lifted up the arm rest and moved close to her, he held her as she balled her eyes out. He couldn't hold his tears in anymore. He was crying while she gripped onto him.

Spencer drove the opposite way. He drove to his condo. He held her hand while walking inside, after shutting the door she crashed her lips onto his. A few tears escaped her eyes, feeling him holding her close to his body. She winced a little from her ribs being in pain. He pulled away before raising her shirt a little seeing her bruise. He dropped to his knees, hands on her waist before kissing it gently. She looked down and rubbed his head. They both wanted each other but Spencer knew it was too sudden plus her body is in pain. He stood up and lead her to the bathroom. He turned the shower on and grabbed her a large shirt and shorts for her to wear. She wasn't comfortable getting naked. It was different mood swings for her. One minute she felt comfortable and then another she didn't. This was that moment she didn't feel comfortable getting naked in front of him. "I can step out" she grabbed his hand to stop him. She slowly stripped down and looked away blushing. His heart sunk as he looked at the bruises. He stripped and stepped to her "You're beautiful" she frowned "Don't lie to me" he shook his head "I'm not" he kissed her softly. She slowly stepped in the shower with him stepping in after. She was standing in front of Spencer who was close behind her. He slowly started to kiss the bruises on her back. She closed her eyes enjoying his lips on her skin. He wanted her to feel so loved. It's what she deserved. She turned around with him looking up at her. A tear fell from his eyes. To see her body like this, it broke him. They were both emotional. He stood up so that they could hold each other. "Don't let me go" she cried. "I don't plan on him" he kissed her forehead.

After the shower she was laying in bed, laying on her side. Spencer came out the bathroom, standing near the bed. "Want me to sleep on the couch?" She looked over her shoulder "Why would you do that?" He shrugged. " I don't want to make you uncomfortable" he said to her. "Come to bed" he got in bed. Laying on his back, staring at the ceiling. She looked over her shoulder at him again before moving over to lay her head on his chest. He wrapped his arm around her waist. "I'm sorry... for saying I hated you. I never meant it when I said that. I could never hate you. And I know I need help and I'm going to get it...." she sniffled. "That means a lot to me because it broke my heart when you said it.. twice" she looked up at him "I'm so sorry, Spencer"he shook his head "Baby I know. It's been a very emotional roller coaster and I just want to help you be happy again" he told her. "I don't think I could ever be happy again. I'm too damaged... I don't understand why you're still here. Why would you want someone who is broken..." she felt his lips on her head, he gave her a kiss. "You are not what happened to you Liv. You're much greater than that. It's time to move forward. It's gonna be tough but, I know you can do it. I am here, by your side, every step of the way. But you have to believe in yourself even after the way he damaged you. But you're not damaged goods. You gonna be happy again. I believe that. You're going to remember everything. And even if you don't, I'll help you create new memories. Much happier ones. Only if you allow me to be there for you in that way" she was silent. "Liv?" He looked down seeing that she was fast asleep. A soft smile formed before he slowly kissed her head. "I love you so much" he whispered. "I love you too" she said half asleep.

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