2021: It's a feeling

Black

Eyes are tired,

Tubelight seems like prickles for the soreness

Blinking, squinting, trying to not fall asleep

Sleep isn't the solution but

It can be a problem

When you dream that high 

You have already chosen sacrifice

Get up when it's pitch black outside

 Deep breaths,

 Telling yourself it'll be worth it all,

 Hope is everything you have

 When you have everything on stakes to lose

Get in the shower

Washing down fatigue

I don't know what's driving me

 When there's nobody around to applaud

I've chosen this path and I will leave no stone unturned

And what doesn't kill me makes me more determined.

Refuel with coffee in that favourite mug

That was a trophy when I was young

Reminds me of those days when everything was too easy.

Does it not feel unwanted?

When the world doesn't think you are not old enough to have problems.

Your voices suppressed

Your reactions overreact

You are trapped

And darling aren't you scared of the dark too? 

What am I a kid or a responsible adult?

 The future or the spoiled generation?

Should I not look before I leap or take every measured step?

 You only live once or think twice about the next?

You only live once, or think of the next?

I watch the ink get all used up in mathematical equations,

 When a part of me just wants to doodle it all

 Watching time click by 

Knowing I wouldn't do the stuff that I really want to

When you dream that high

You've already chosen sacrifice.

 But do you know that feeling?

When you go to bed at midnight

And strike your head on the pillow

Which strikes the most natural smile

You're satisfied

You're proud

And you know,

 everything will turn out well

And I guess that's the feeling that makes me tick everyday.