Skipping back the pages of my diary,
That day of the parents teachers meet,
Was always the bright child from the start
So the teacher said she as dipped a lot compared to before
When we left, I felt bitter
Knowing I did not meet the mark,
My father said "just work harder next time",
And so I did..
Skipping back to the tutorials
Where I felt I wasn't enough
They said "You need to work harder",
And so I did...
Skipping back to the last year of school"
Gotta work harder", Mum said,
"You gotta score better than me right", Sis exclaimed
And so I did...
My friends say that I'm lucky
to get such a supporting family,
they are the best, you should be grateful
and I really thought the same.
But now if I got a chance
To travel back in time
I would ask myself a question
"Honey what do YOU want to do,
not for them but for yourself, what do you wanna be? "
And I always thought I would
But I won't say thankyou me..
I would ask her to cry more in front of others
I would ask her to dance and sing in your house
at least when you feel like doing it.
"Honey tryna be the perfect girl
comes with a lot of toll",
To be not afraid
To not think about your hobbies, your passion as
"Just a thing to do for fun"
Cuz when I want to do it now,
I won't say thankyou me..
And I won't say thankyou mom
For all that love you gave
Made me forget I ever had a ache
And now makes her think I have no pain
And I won't say thankyou dad
For all the motivation
"Giving up is not in our blood"
Yeah but maybe every good thing needs some rest,
"Don't be afraid of the dark,
there is always brightness around"
But what do I do when I'm tried of finding that brightness now?
And I won't say thankyou sis
For all those high hopes you had from me
It's really disappointing to
disappoint someone else along with me
Reached the part
Where the ink had succumbed to the tears
Wiped it off I remember
So that so one sees it ever
Reached the part
Where I dread to even write anything else
And say that it's getting worse
And say I wasn't ,thankyou me..
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2021: It's a feeling
Poesía2021 is more than just a "year" and a wild rollercoaster which is not going as we would have wished for it to be. In this collection of short poems/songs I got to express all those ineffable feelings that used to haunt me and somehow penning it down...
