𝚃𝚘𝚛𝚗- Cedric x Reader x Draco

Break-up song

Fuck. I really just...
No, I didn't.
I'm lying to Cedric, again.
And I am a traitor. A cheater. Not a good girlfriend, and also not a good friend. Someone who can't even make simple decisions.
Because I'm torn. Torn between two.
My two boys, two boys I can imagine a future with, and I while I can't live without Cedric, when Draco walks by, I can't stop thinking about his skin, his smell, his body so close to mine.
But now, it's Cedric's skin close to mine, his lips on my neck.
And it feels so goddamn good.
„Ced, you..." I whisper, with the last little bit of strength and breath I have left.
He pulls away.
„What?" he asks.
But I can't even tell him, because I'm this moment, the door opens.
„Fuck, Y/n, I told you not to visit hi-" silence.
Cedric looks at me, confused.
Draco stares at Cedric and me, angry.
I feel guilty.
„You and him?" Draco stumbles.
„You fucking hoe." he turns around and wants to go, but I let go of Cedric and try to catch him. I don't have an idea what to say, because I can't explain what just happened.
It just happened.
And I am a fucking hoe. A stupid cheater.
I don't even deserve better.
„Draco! Wait!" I yell and try to touch his hand, hold him back, but he's way too strong.
„Fuck you!" he yells and pushes my hand away. „Are you goddamn stupid? How can you even do this to me?" „I...I thought..." no, I didn't even think.
„I'm sorry." I whisper.
„And you think a simple „sorry" can help now? I just have one single question." He's still shouting at me, and all the students are looking at us.
„Ask it, then."
„How long? For how long are you...cheating on me?"
„I didn't even cheat on you. This was the...first time." In fact, I didn't cheat, did I?
The silence hurts.
Deep inside my chest, something breaks. I didn't even know it was there before, but now, it's causing the terrible pain in my whole body.
I can't guess what's going on inside of Draco's head, he just looks down at me, disappointed, sad, I don't know.
Can I even make it any worse?
„Draco, listen to me, I-"
I stop talking mid-sentence, because I know it wouldn't make sense anymore.
I can't save anything.
He's better off without me, and I'm not ready for a relationship with him.
„I am so, so sorry." I whisper and take his hands, they are cold like ice.
He doesn't move.
I squeeze his hands in mine, trying to give him the apology he wants, he needs, he deserves.
I was the one who messed up our relationship.
„I really hope  you'll be able to live with what you did." he says.
He takes his hands back and walks away, without looking at me one more time.
That's it.
That was everything he had left to tell me.
And now, I have to live with what I did, that's true.
But can I do this?
Can I live with the guilt, can I live while I know I hurted someone, I cheated?
I guess I'll find out soon.

Cedric didn't move.
He's laying on his bed and starring at the door, almost like he would be made out of stone.
„So, that's it."
He says as I walk in, closing the door behind my back.
I nod.
„I didn't want it to end like this, listen to me, Ced, I can explain..." and suddenly, I want to explain.
I don't want this to be over.
„I don't want you to explain."
He almost whispers.
„Okay." that's everything I can say, nothing else is coming out of my mouth, there's so much I want to tell him, so many things, but I know it's not right.
Not yet.
„I need some time."
His voice sounds like he would be sick.
I nod my head, again, tears are filling my eyes.
„I love you, Ced."
I whisper as I walk out, I don't even know if he can hear it or not.
It's probably better if he doesn't.