The Player

The guilt I hold

IZUKU POV

Now it was time to get out of this damn basement. To finally feel relaxed and feel the fresh air in my face. I was so ready.

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I move the bed with the very strength I have left in my arm. My right arm was so bruised and broken that it was a miracle that I actually moved the bed.Once the bed is moved, I start to crawl through the hole. I was excited. I was excited that I actually was getting out of here, but I knew in order for my plan to work.... I would need to come back to this wretched place. I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I start getting more and more happy. The more I get closer to the light, the more I start to think about what life I'm going to live. What life I want to live, what kind of person I want to be. What would I think about, would I have more nightmares or nice dreams. Would I perhaps find love, have a family? I haven't really thought of any of that, I was too focused on getting out of this hell. Then I feel the bright sun in my face, the sky is a clear blue, I hear the birds chirping. I was crying, not sad crying. But more like overjoyed, I get up and just stand there. Taking in the scenery, it was beautiful. I could probably stare at it for hours and never, ever get rid of the sight. I stood there as time passed by. I finally look at my watch.

" I've been standing here for an hour"- I say aloud. I then look at the scenery once more and smile. The first time I have smiled in years.

" But I don't regret it."- I whisper, still smiling.

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⚠WARNING SEXUAL CONTENT⚠ ( I think? 🤔 )

I take a look around to see where I ended up. It look like I was at a beach filled with trash.

" An illegal dumping ground huh"- I utter. I have been to dumping rounds once before. It reminded me of some terrible memories.

(Flashback)

Robert always made me do all the chores and when it was taking out the trash, I would need to go there. Robert also had pretty girls over to the house all the time. I didn't like it when those girls came over. Because whenever one would come in, I would never see them leave. I was so confused and nervous for them, so I decided to follow where Robert would take them. I guess Robert caught on since the next thing I know I was tied to a chair. I was behind glass and on the other side was a bed. A pretty pink haired girl was on the other side and it looked that she was taking her clothes off? I remembering blushing in embarrassment and closing my eyes.

" You wanna close your eyes now huh? Well you were curious weren't you, that's why you followed me right?"- Robert says close to my ear. Curiousness got the better of me and I opened my eyes to look at him.

" Good, good. Now if I find out you close your eyes during the show, I'll punish you real bad"- Robert shouts while walking away and I shiver. I focus to keep my eyes open, and keep blushing in embarrassment due to the naked girl I'm seeing lay down on the bed. Clothes off to the side. I wish I just closed my eyes, why didn't I close my eyes?! 

 I see Robert walk in the room and lick his lips. I was so confused, what was he going to do? I then see what traumatized me to this day and I will never forget it. For the next hour, all I could see was the love-making between two people. Moans, slaps, the sound of skin hitting each other was all you could hear. I started getting sweaty. I couldn't close my eyes or else I could get punished. All I wanted to know was what was happening to the girls robert brought over and boy, I got my answer.

Then it finally stopped, the disturbing noises stopped,and all you could hear was painting. But the next part is what made this truma a whole lot worse. I saw Robert put a cloth over her mouth, and her eyes rolled back. She started struggling, hitting Robert and trying to scream for help. I watched as the life slowly drained from her body. I watched as her chest stopped going up and down. I watched a person die right in front of me and I couldn't do anything but just watch it happen. My eyes went wide at that moment, and I started to sweat even more than before.