I recommend listening to this playlist as you read this( it adds to the sadness)
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/32EiYlLZRMSmSWYpEHSPjQ
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IZUKU/AZEL POV
I was running to back to the base, jumping on the rooftops in the dead of night. The base was apart of an office building, so its a tall building. So when I didn't see it in my view I was confused.
" Did I take a wrong turn?"- I thought. I turn my head right; My eyes widen as much as they could and my mouth goes wide. I land on the ground near the scene and stood there; looking in horror as I saw the dead bodies of my comrades, my brothers. Laying lifelessly on the ground, splats of a deep scarlet red everywhere on the ground. Poker chips and broken pool tables in some places, some covered in blood or dust from the concrete. Bloodied weapons in the hands of the dead. I look around with the same look plastered on my face.
" KAISER, LIAM, ORSON, SHELDON. WHERE ARE YOU?!"- I yell at the top of my lungs....no answer.
I shout and shout, looking through the rubble. Frantically looking around me amissly. Hope slowly getting smaller as the seconds go by, but felt like an eternity to me. Then I see him.
" SHELDON"- I cry. He was in the middle of the rubble, in a pool of his own blood. As I run towards him, my heads starts to hurt. Images of the fight that happened in the dungeon, Clive dying, then Malia. I shake my head and kneel beside sheldon.
" You're going to be okay, don't worry you're going to be o-"- I stop, staring at sheldon passed out in my arms. I put my hands on the side of my head, dropping sheldon's head on my bloodstained, dusted lap.
" WHA-WHATS HAPPENING TO ME?!"- I whisper shout. I felt deja vu. I feel like I am pulled into bits of a unfinished memory. I see Nel, a black cloud covering his face. Mouthing words but nothing coming out. But somehow I knew what he was saying. Then I am dragged back to reality.
I felt like a ragdoll, my mind being controlled by an unknown force to mess with me at the worst moments. I had absolute no control of my life, I thought I was free. Able to do whatever I want and go anywhere without pain anymore. I have an abnormal IQ for a child and an adult. And because of that I thought I grew out of my childness, that I was so mature, that I knew everything. But I guess....*I chuckle*, I was wrong.
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I close my eyes and hold sheldon in my arms again, trying to keep the warmth stay put in his body. Sobbing. I start to use my quirk, hoping it would work to save his life.
" he-hey"- I hear faintly. I immediately open my eyes and stare at sheldon, stopping my quirk for a second.
" Sheldon?"- I ask, hoping I really heard his voice and not some delusion.
" so-sorry i wasn't able to celebrate your birthday."- sheldon utters and I'm shocked. I never told anyone it was my birthday. I chuckle.
"Don't worry, you still can. I can heal you. Ju-just wait.."- I stutter, trying to smile. I start using my quirk, and I feel the power crossing threw my body in to my hands. My hands start to glow a faint green. Then I feel a hand on my arm stop me.
" No..don't, it's my time"- Sheldon speaks. I was appalled he said that and shook my head furiously.
" WHAT DO YOU MEAN?! I FINALLY HAVE THE POWER TO SAVE PEOPLE, TO SAVE YOU! WHY DON'T YOU WANT TO BE SAVED? I DON'T, I don't understand"- I yell, talking normally at the end. I start to sob even more, squinting my eyes.
" Because I can't live anymore, the gang....my family has gone to ruins. I can't live with myself."- Sheldon responds
" YOU HAVE ME, AM-am I not enough?"- I ask him.
." You know, you remind me of a very dear person I met once. You so much like him, it's baffling to me."- Sheldon says, avoiding my question. But I knew, I knew I was important to him, somehow. He didn't have to say it to me.
" Who was it?"- I voice to him. Playing along.
" My father.....he was the only person I truly miss, and yearn to be with. And then when I met the gang they added to the list. Then I met you, a depressed looking 10-year old in a alleyway. All by yourself; and as much as I want to be with you, my heart can't take it."- Sheldon utters, his voice weakening by the second.
" THEN WHAT ABOUT ME!? WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MY SELF. ALL MY LIFE I HAVE LIVED IN MISERY. THE ONLY JOY I HAD WAS WITH THE PEOPLE I MADE HAPPY MEMORIES WITH AND GUESS WHAT! THEY DIED. THEY DIED AND LEFT ME, EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE DOING NOW. SO TELL ME, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!?"- I yell, my vocal cords starting to burn. I look at Sheldon for an answer, an answer that will guide my on what to do next.
But he didn't speak, instead he just smiled at me. The look on his face, the emotion I felt radiating off of him, was one of understanding. I weakly smile as I watched Sheldon close his eyes, his breathing starts to slow down.
Silence, you could hear nothing. Sheldon pulse slowly fading, and finally... he goes limp. The warmth I felt before is now gone. The coldness wrapped around his body quickly. I started reliving my final moments I had with Nel; Softly putting Sheldon to lay on the ground. I put my bandaged hands on the ground, feelling waters drops fall on my back. Those droplets turn into pouring rain.
I sit there soaking in the rain. Watching the once starry star turn into one filled with the clouds of the abyss I like to call it.
" Why does everyone I care about leave me? Why can't they stay? Why can't I ever be happy?"- I question in my head. It's like a curse was placed on me, I just bring death to all the people I care about. I have no one. No one anymore. I sit crissed crossed in the cold rain. Relapsing all the events that I have lived threw.
The happy years I had with my parents
The hospital
The 2 years I had with Robert.
The bullying of my peers at school
The family I met in the red gate.
All the times I would fail in training and they would help me.
The conversations I had with them.
The moments I watched them die in front of me as I was paralyzed in shock.
The 4 months I was back with my family.
The horrible beatings called "training" I would receive from my sister and bakugou as I was strapped down to a flimsy bed. Like I was insane. Like I deserved this.
The little time I spent with the old lady.
The fight I had with a big bear to save a ferret that reminded me so much of me.
The exact moment I had finally gotten my power.
The happy memories I had with Raffles. I wonder from time to time where he is now.
When I first met Sheldon.
When I first met the gang, my brothers
The training I did with them.
My first mission.
How I felt when I drove a fast car.
The little talk with the mysterious girl
My fight with Aizawa.
And now... sitting in the rubble. Surrounded by the dead bodies of the comrads I cared for.
I laugh a little, Looking up into the abyss.
" I guess god really does hate me."- I think.
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Hey Lovelys! Finally a chapter is here. I am so sorry I haven't posted in like five days.
My mom is having a baby shower and there was a lot of events and I didn't have time to write a chapter. 😅
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