my so called step brother | Yungi

chapter twenty

That question wandered around in Mingi's head, and every time he would forget, it replayed itself. What were they now? Are they just friends or stepbrothers, or friends with benefits? Mingi didn't know but he hoped none of them.

After school was done, he decided to text Yunho he would walk home. Stress and anxiety taking over his body by the thought of having to face Yunho.

You don't have to pick me up.
I'll just walk home.

He hit send and put his phone in his pocket. Not bothering looking at it again when it vibrated. His school was a good 35 minute walk from home. It was near the park and the pancake restaurant.

Mingi just walked and walked, placing one foot before the other while he was lost in his thoughts.

He arrived sooner at his house than expected. He didn't want to enter, he didn't want to deal with questions as to why he walked home, why he didn't answer his phone, he just wanted to not see people, he wanted peace.

So, he turned around and started walking again, away from his house, away from the things he is to afraid to face. He walked for hours, the light was starting to fade from the sky, the hollow moonlight taking its spot in the sky.

Arriving at his destination he sat down, legs crossed, his hands supporting his body behind him.

His eyes overlooked the lake which was slowly moving. Taking in the noise of water running, Mingi closed his eyes and peace took over his body. The truth is, whenever Mingi is sad he comes to this place hidden in the woods. He used to carry tons of soju bottles with him so he could peacefully get drunk, he didn't always go to bars like his family thought, not at all. But today, he didn't have anything, thinking about that made him smile; this was thanks to Yunho. Mingi was never able to take in the pain, the questions, the thoughts without drinking, but now, he finally realised it's not that bad after all.

This darkness comforted him, like the moonlight embraced him anytime.

He lays down on his back, fixing the moon and the stars, everytime he blinked he saw a couple more, here and there. He smiled, and closed his eyes, the noises from the nature around him filling his ears. The cold breeze making his body shiver.

Mingi needed these moments once in a while, to just forget the world and feel free. To be able to be himself and forget all the trouble he's been trough.
His phone kept on lighting up, but he ignored it. He needed this right now. He finally turned his phone completely off after checking the time. 1:41am. Mingi got up and walked back home. Hands in his pockets, feet moving slowly.

When he arrived back home he was greeted with Yunho sitting on the couch. Before he could say anything Mingi quickly said; "Don't talk to me I want to be alone, please." Whispering the please before heading upstairs and preparing for a good sleep. He'll explain everything to Yunho tomorrow, when he got the energy and mindset to do so.

He heard Yunho coming up and closing his bedroom door, Mingi sighed in relief that he understands him, not searching for answers like his mom would have done.

At least, if she'd known.

Mingi and Hye Jeong never had a close band. The reason? Mingi had, in fact, another biological mother but he doesn't know her, and his parents never knew that he knows.

When he was little, but old enough to understand, he overhead a conversation between the two; "Please even if I'm not around, take care of him like he's you're own son." Those words lingered in his head, but he never spoke to his parents about it. His whole life he kept pretending, and he felt like he didn't need to anymore. Like he couldn't anymore, after all, this meant he could just be with Yunho without there being any problem.

Right?

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It's literally 2am and I have exams tomorrow :)

But I felt like I didn't update y'all for so long, anyways, this is a really imporant chapter to understand Mingi's life little more.