You Will Always be Our Little Girl

.+*Twenty*+.

It's been a month. I'm sorry.

Emiko's POV

- 2 weeks later -

I look down at my phone to find see if Mason ever responded to my message, but there was nothing. I sigh as I shut off my phone, "I heard your boyfriend is in the hospital. Cancer or something?" I turn around to see Daiki.

"It's none of your business-" I put a strand of hair behind my ear, nervous. This guy was never the "good news guy" even in middle school.

"Oh come on, Em, I want to know why Mabel hasn't been at school and you have."

"Mabel's parents have it dealt with, okay?" I try to turn away but he tugs my hair lightly, "yeah, I'm not done talking to you." I sigh, "are you jealous of Mabel?" I shake my head, pushing him away, "no! She's a good friend! How could- how could I-"

"I see it, Em. Everyone's jealous of her. Everyone knows it too. So what are you jealous of? Her happiness? Her family? Her money? Her home? Or maybe..you're jealous that you and Mason will never be as close as her and-"

"Stop it..! I'm not jealous of her!" This attracts attention from everyone around us.

I had my fists in a way where my nails were sinking into my skin. I look up at Daiki and this seemed to amuse him. My frustration towards him amused him.

"You are, princess, admit it." I scoff, "I'm not. Mason and Mabel have been friends since they were six years old. I'm not jealous of a friendship."

"What if I said they kissed before?" I shrug and shake my head, taking a deep breath, "I trust Mason, Daiki..I'm sorry you don't know how to trust someone in a relationship, but I don't get jealous at things as small as him having a female best friend. Her and I are actually really close and I think that's part of the reason why you're jealous of me."

"That's awfully cocky." He spits out and I just roll my eyes, "you're a terrible person, and no one will ever forgive you." I feel my phone buzz in my hand and I smile at the message.

"Now go away. I don't want to look at you anymore." I turn away and start walking towards my classroom.

- - -

"Get your head out of your ass!" I flinch as I hear the front door slam. I dim my lamp and just continue my homework, trying to block out the yelling, but it barely helped.

I plug in my headphones and plug them into my phone to play music.

About half an hour later, a call comes through. I smile at the contact and answer immediately.

E: mason! what's up?

M: Hey, Em. I-It just s-seemed like your parents w-would be home by now. Just a distraction.

I smile as he clears his throat.

I guess you could say that both Mason and I are troubled kids with abusive parents

E: doesn't talking hurt?

M: eh, k-kinda. But that won't stop me.

My smile becomes wider and I just shake my head.

E: we don't have to talk then.

M: well, c-can I tell you w-why I called you?

The anxiety pit that has been in my stomach grows and it gets stuck in my throat.

M: I-I'm going in for surgery in two days..and I-I wanted to tell you a few things..I-If it goes wrong, y-you know?

E: It's not going to go wrong-

M: a-and if does? I think I should say this-

I sigh. There is a high chance of it going wrong...I should listen...but I don't want to..

E: Can we not talk about this- I don't want-

M: Em, please..

His words sounded so desperate, yet eager to say this.

(Forget the stuttering but imagine where the stutters would be.)

M: Em, I need to tell you this, and it's actually funny because I have it written down- uhm- Emiko. I met you in one of the darkest places of my life and you kind of saved it. Mabel got with Daiki, and I was alone. But right when I thought I was, you showed up. I..

He sighs and pauses for a minute.

M: I think I'm in love with you, Em. And that's a big thing to say, but I think I do..and I know you think that love is just a four letter word that doesn't serve a purpose, but to me it's the opposite..I think I'm in love with you. Whenever I think of you, I smile, and whenever I think of a life without you, I break into pieces and try desperately to remind myself you're there. And..if something bad does happen, I don't want you to think that I was just another guy that got with you for the pure fun of it, okay?

I smile as a tear runs down my face. This might be the actual last time I talk to him..I'm going to be out of town tomorrow. I can't see him before the surgery. This could be the last time I hear his voice. The last time I hear him breathe. This can be the last time.

E: Mason...I-I love you..

M: do you now?

I giggle as I wipe my tears with my sleeve.

M: are you crying?

E: yeah..

M: d-don't cry! It's okay! Nothing's going to happen! We could bet on it!

E: yeah?

M: mhm! If I live, you give me a bouquet.

E: why?

M: just to give this room some decoration. I don't know.

I laugh and look down.

E: okay...

M: okay?

E: okay.

M: okay. Well, im going to sleep now. You should too!

E: okay. I love you, Mason.

M: I love you too, em. More than anything.

The tears well in my eyes again.

E: goodnight..sleep well, okay?

M: you can bet on that. you too! goodnight, em.

He hangs up and I wipe my eyes and chuckle sadly, placing my phone on my desk in front of me.

A small sob comes out and I try wiping my tears, but it was useless. I know usually you would feel hopeful in a situation where your boyfriend could get better, but I just feel hopeless. I feel like we could've done so much more if knew.

I can only imagine how Mabel feels. Her best friend that she's known for most of her school life is going to be having a BRAIN surgery.

...

and yet I still think of her in this situation.

Im not jealous of Mabel Sawamura. Im jealous of the time she's had with Mason.

- - - end of chapter - - -

I DID IT! WOO!

song: kind - SHINee

words: 1148

finished: june 20, 2021 at 10:45 pm.

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