See You Again

XXXIII

Previously on The Vampire Diaries:

"I see you've already met McKenzie"

"NESSA! We're out of After Eights"

"Peter and I are going to our beach house on the week after Christmas"

"Did she invite you here?"

"See, Ness, I told you he was a manwhore"

"We're not friends"

"Hi, Willy. How's your day going?"

"Be my girlfriend. Be my girlfriend and to hell with everyone else"

"You're a nice guy and it was fun while it lasted but it's better if this ends here"

"Come on! Is this because of the welsh girl?"

"Will, you can kiss me now"

"The name is Kenzie"

(sorry, just had to)

McKenzie Hayes was sweet and funny, the kind of person whose laugh was contagious. Just not to all.

The look she gave to all of us reminded me of Vanessa for a second. For so long I had only known smiles. It was easy to forget the cold indifference and careless behaviour. Harsh words came back floating on my mind and anger flashed across my mind. Sadness overtook it quickly.

Miss Bremer was explaining a few things in a very disoriented manner. "You can seat there" she pointed at the vacant seat in front of me.

Her eyes fell on me like sin, so quickly I could've imagined it. Without glancing over me again, she gave an acknowledging nod to Vanessa and sat down, her golden hair facing me.

"What is she doing here?" I turned to Vanessa rather harshly.

She looked as surprised as I was. I think I saw hurt and betrayal flash across her eyes. Mackie is my best friend. I wonder if she is as delusional about McKenzie as I am with her.

I looked from one to the other and my mouth went dry.

You're weak, the voice laughed.

I know.

You're pathetic!

I know.

You're delusional.

I know.

Who do you love, Willy?

I clenched my teeth, the mockery I was no longer used to annoyed me endlessly. What was I supposed to say when I didn't know the answer?

You're weak!

Laughter erupted through my ears.

Who are you?

Who am I?

I've always thought of myself as assertive. I knew what I wanted and I would always get it. Now I don't know what I wanted and I don't think I could get anything out of this but pain.

Pathetic!

I know and I hate myself for that.

How did I get to this point? What happened to me?

"Hey, I'm Cooper" my eyes landed on the guy sitting next to Kenzie.

I didn't know Cooper at all. Every class he sat in front of Vanessa and that was it. We don't talk or anything, though he once tried to make a move on Vanessa. She turned him down but that doesn't mean I like him.