*ੈ✩ 𝐧𝐨𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 ‧₊˚ s. kiyoomi

𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎

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[XXX]

What should i do.

  Asked Kiyoomi himself, tapping his fingers on the steering wheels with Shinju being dead asleep on the passenger seat. The girl fell asleep maybe two minutes after he began to drive back to his place.

His eyes travelled her chest, moving up and down at each deep breath inhaled trough her small nose, still dark circles decorating her eyes.. what should i do.

It's been a while since his eyes were glued on the red brick wall lighted by the headlights of his car, his eyes glancing at the red buttons of the heater or the radio, decorating the dashboard of the vehicule.

  Kiyoomi sighed loudly and suddenly turned the contact on, a hint of anger taking part of him for a second. The boy was totally lost i. his own decisions and, he was probably committing a big, big, big mistake, But who cares, it was to late now.

"Fuck it."

[SHINJU]

  Still this quiet music playing, looks like i'm still in the car.. but.. but it's nighttime now.. what time it is? How long did i slept..?

I discreetly opened my eyes, making sure not to move even just slightly. Apparently we're  on a very large and empty road; i think it's raining outside. His large hand is gripping very gently my thigh, making me feel way to safe.

"Where we going?"

"Somewhere." He simply said, not even glancing at me. "Are you hungry?" I noticed the box of fries resting between his legs as he was driving. When did we even stopped? "Look it snowing outside."

  Like a child, i felt my eyes just lighting up at the word, i brought my face closed to the windows and looked at all those little snowflakes falling down like feathers.

"Why can't you tell me-"

"Spending christmas under the snow." Before i could proceed his words, i just fell out of words. Spending.. christmas... under the snow?

  I feel so.. so weird. Why is he doing all of that for me? Even if i'm sure about his intentions, Kiyoomi knows. He is fully aware about my loneliness. I still don't totally understand the point of this relationship and where we going, we went from strangers fucking in a train to spending christmas together. I'm totally lost but- i shouldn't think about it too much i guess..

Again, before i could proceed to come back to reality, my face was buried in his hoodie.

"Sorry if you don't like it, i just thought it-"

"No i like it.. really but- you.. you have a family and-" I tried to spell between ugly cries.

"And my family isn't celebrating christmas here." I sniffed and looked up to him, sitting back on my seat. "I'm not with them this year. I was alone too." The red lights passed to green so he focused back on the snowy and empty road, his hand never leaving mine, resting on my leg.

"I... i really appreciate, Kiyoomi."

"Me too."

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"It's fucking freezing in there." I stated, letting my bag fall on the ground.

It's 3am and we arrived at the little house, lost between large pines forest and high mountains, even if it's dark outside i can tell there are covered in snow, the moon is reflecting herself on the thick white coat of snowflakes. Kiyoomi turned on the electricity and switched on a light and i finally discovered the house.

It was really tiny, a really cute and small kitchen at my right and an also very small living room with a cozy couch and a large tv. I spotted a corridor probably leading to the rest of the house, but i didn't felt like going in this dark corridor alone.

"I thought i already told you about my arms being warm." Spoke Omii with his usual flat and emotionless voice, quickly setting up the house, he switched on and off every lights to make sure they were working, spreading a very soft orange glow in the dark wooden chalet, he also tested the tap of the kitchen, verifying it was working as well. After his words, he let out a small chuckles, moving his shoulders with his small laughs.

"Why you're laughing?" I said, shyly walking to the center of the room to take a proper look, it's oddly clean for a close chalet like that, from the coldness in there i bet that no one came in a while.

"I'm really out of character."

"I agree." I chuckled back, playing with my feet and fidgeting with my fingers.

"You don't like it?" I steadily looked at his figure leaning against the corner of the corridor, his head lazily resting on the planks.

I felt my heart jumping and spinning and doing like... roller coaster ride in my chest at the vision of his expression, a little smirk spreading on his soft lips and his eyes, being softer than usual.. he's so confusing even if he's not doing anything. But i kind of noticed that he actually liked when i give him mixed signals back to him, and i'm not going to lie: i don't know where i am in this relationship. I've never liked anyone in my life, i don't know how it feels so it's totally understandable if i can't tell if i like him or not? Everything when really quick after all.

I'm just so lost. Even if it's not clearly showing up, there's a lot that's going in my life. Maki, school, family papers, him.. i shouldn't be just focused on him. But i can't help it.

"Maybe i do."

"Is it enough for you?" I narrowed my brows, not understanding what he meant, but actually i'm unpacking our clothes as he asked me to do so, i turned around and widened my eyes at the piles of blankets messily thrown on the bed, if i'm cold tonight then.. i don't know what's wrong with me.

"I guess." I laughed quietly, putting the last piece of clothes into the closet before closing it.

"Get your ass in the bed, i'm going to close the doors, it'll heat faster." I simply nodded and he left, so i took this time to change myself into my night clothes, so basically a large t-shirt and a jogging, it's really cold here.

  I went to the bathroom he showed me earlier and washed my face. I nicely insulted the water heater for being lazy and not giving me at least warm water, but i washed my face and did my skin care routine before slipping into the bed, cold bed.

Kiyoomi joined the room a minute after, he also did his things in the bathroom and changed in just some coton shorts before joining me under the covers.

He instantly wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled my back against his hard chest, i felt his breath then his nose snuggling softly in my neck before he mumbled something, making me laugh. "Finally.." I turned around to face him. "Still tired? The fuck? You slept in the car?"

"Life haven't been easy these day.." I didn't even minded what i was saying and honestly i don't care anymore. He's a part of my life now.

"Shin. I'm worried for you." He spoked seriously, making me laugh.

"You don't need to. Just don't be another bother to me, please.."

[XXX]

  Kiyoomi gulped loudly after she fell asleep on his chest, her breathing pattern becoming a lot more calm and synchronized than when she's woke up, he didn't hesitate to ran his hand trough her hair.

"You're making things difficult to handle baby.. y'know..?" He mumbled softly, lowing down his head to look at hers. "Messing with my two years relationship.." His long fingers brushed a strand of her black hairs falling on her nose, placing it behind her ears. "Making me lying to my friends.." His hand, ready to do another contact with her hair, froze in the hair and a little smile spread on his lips.

"I'm sorry, i think i'm gonna break your heart."

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