Save Me (Mafuyu X Uenoyama)

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Mafuyu sat in the nurses office for the rest of the school day, sitting in a chair and staring down at the floor. For a while, his teacher had accompanied him, giving him a bit of company as he sat there. But eventually, she had to get back to her job, and Mafuyu was left alone.

He ended up dozing off for an hour or so, but mostly just sat and stared at walls and such. He got lost in thought, and when the last bell rang, he hurried out of the school before Uenoyama could even see he was at the infirmary.

He limped as he walked, wincing in pain with every step and breathing shallowly. These bruises would take so long to heal... He decided he would buy some makeup to cover it up later. Or better yet, he could use his mom's.

"Hey," Uenoyama said softly, wrapping an arm around Mafuyu from behind as he ran up to him. He noticed how Mafuyu ducked away from him, and how skittish he seemed. He had never had that kind of response to touch before, and Uenoyama found it sad that he was now. "What's wrong..?"

When Uenoyama touched him, Mafuyu indeed did duck away. He had a moment of panic, and in that quick moment he covered the back of his head with both arms, preparing for the worst. But when he realized it was just his boyfriend, he relaxed a little and put on an ungenuine smile. Then, after a moment, he came to a realization.

Was this how Yuki felt..? Smiling when he knew he wasnt happy... Smiling when he was in pain. Smiling even if he felt awful inside...

That wiped the smile rigjt off Mafuyu's face, showing his true expression that was accurate to how he felt. He didnt want to do what Yuki did... He didn't want to decive people and make them think he was okay. Even if he knew it wasnt Yuki's fault. He wanted to be honest, but he couldn't. He had no choice. He had no power...

"Uenoyama-kun..." Mafuyu mumbled, frowning at him. "If I tell you something... will you promise not to tell anyone..?" He may have no power, but he had at least a little control. He had enough control to stop deceiving and lying.

"Uhm... yeah." Uenoyama replied, continuing to walk home with him. "What is it?"

"I... I didnt fall yesterday. I didn't get bashed on a tree. And I'm not okay." It was alright to be not okay, and that was something he learned after Yuki's passing. If Yuki had admitted he wasnt okay, or told someone how he felt, he might still be here.

Uenoyama's eyes widened and he kept himself from gasping. "Oh... can you tell me what happened..?" His heart was racing, but not in the good way. Not in the way it did when he was kissing Mafuyu, but more in the way it did when he watched a scary movie, or heard a noise when he was home alone. He thought he had a good idea of what happened, and if he was right, he would be even more worried than he already had been.

"My dad... It was my dad..." he said as he looked at the ground, kicking rocks as he walked. "He did this... he did all of this..." and the worst part was, Mafuyu only remembered half of it. Everything after he was knocked out was a blur. "He said he'd hurt you if I told. If you value your life at all, dont tell anyone." That last part came out a bit too harshly... it sounded like a threat. Well, wasnt it?

Uenoyama's face went pale and his eyes widened. Then, suddenly, he pulled out his phone.

Then, he went to the call button, typed 911, and...

Mafuyu snatched the phone from him with a frown. "Dont." He said, throwing the phone on he ground. He made sure not to damage it while also making his point. "Next time, maybe I will smash it." He said softly. "Dont call anyone. I'm fine.. Its just a few hits to the head." Actually, he was pretty sure he had a concussion. But he wasnt about to admit that.

"What the hell Mafuyu?!!" Uenoyama exclaimed angrily, going to pick up his phone. "You just told me you weren't okay!! So you expect me to believe you now?!"

Mafuyu simply looked at the ground in shame. "I dunno..." he mumbled, feeling pretty bad about throwing the phone and stuff. "I think I'm fine..." He really wasnt. He was in agony. "Yeah, I'm fine... I dont need help from anyone, okay? That's why I dont want you to call. It would waste the police men's time." He was getting a little dizzy again, which really wasnt good. There was no way he didn't have some sort of concussion.

Uenoyama could tell he wasnt okay. Uenoyama could see right through his lies, and it pained him to look at such a sad version of his beloved, happy, Mafuyu. "Dont lie to me!" He said, tears in his eyes. "I can tell, Mafuyu... I know you're hurting really bad... Dont hide those things from me!!" a tear ran down his face and he hugged him, sniffling.

Mafuyu flinched again at the hug, not expecting it. He was sort of uncomfortable being touched at a time like this. When he was upset, he often got hypersensitive to things. He could feel each time his clothes rubbed against his skin, or exactly the way the wind hit his face or the breeze whistled in his ears. Being touched hurt when he got like that. He was hyper aware of every nerve in his body. And so, he sort of groaned, pushing Uenoyama away softly before looking at the ground. "I'm sorry..." he couldn't help it. "Please dont touch me..."

Uenoyama, not understanding, was kind of offended. He thought that Mafuyu simply didn't want to be near him. "I'm just trying to help!" He said angrily, letting go and sighing. "You know what? You obviously dont want me here. I think I'll just leave." He didnt understand why Mafuyu wouldn't want a hug. He never got that same hyper awareness, and Mafuyu had never told him about it, so how could he have known? He sprinted ahead of Mafuyu angrily, not wanting to walk with him anymore.

"No..!" Mafuyu muttered, reaching in front of him. If he knew that would happen, he would have just dealt with the hug... He couldn't help it, though. Every touch felt like fire burning on his skin. It was just something that happened when he was upset. "I'm sorry..." he mumbled, even though he knew no one could hear him. That's what he got for telling, he supposed. From now on, he wasnt going to complain. Not about anything at all. He didnt want to lose Ritsuka, and if that meant setting his boundaries aside so be it. From now on, it didnt matter if it hurt, he would let Uenoyama touch him. It didnt matter how he felt, because he would rather be in pain than lose his only friend. Well, even more than that. His only love left on this earth. He would just submit to it all and deal with it, because he thought everyone else's feelings were more important than his.

He thought he didn't matter.

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A/n: I got overwhelming support from you all, so I've decided to continue writing this!