Far Away (Namjin)

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Dear Namjoon,

I'm trying so hard not to write more than one letter a week but it seems like I am constantly failing. Anyways, I'm not as smart as you are and I definitely don't have as much power over my heart's desires.
You remember how I can't drink coffee because of my heart. It beats too fast when I drink caffeine, yet we drank coffee on almost every weekend morning that we went out to the same spot in the trees and you kept scolding me for bringing that flask. It's laying on my desk empty as I'm reminiscing these memories with you. It still has all those bumps on it from the time you tried to get rid of it.
It was the first time we figured out what coffee does to my body and my heart. You told me not to drink anything of that sort anymore but I know how much you love coffee and how much it brings you peace, so I wanted to be a part of that peace. A part of that memory.
I remember ignoring you and bringing the same flask the other day again and you got so mad at me that you threw my flask away to the depths of the trees with so much anger. I went back with a lantern that night to find the flask in the forest. You knew I wouldn't let go if I wanted something, so we made this contract that I should never drink coffee when you are not around to help if anything ever happened to me.
After that you thought I wouldn't notice that you tried to dilute my cup of coffee with a lot more water and milk that was supposed to be in it.
Don't worry I haven't broken the contract since you've been away. I have a jar of coffee beans in my room and the flask still has the scent. The scent that reminds me of you.

Yours truly,
Seokjin X