New Beginnings

It's All In Your Head

A/N: Hey guys! Theres some angst in this chapter. I really enjoy reading angst, but I don't know how I felt writing it. It's not the best and it's short but I hope you enjoy :)

Warnings: Some angst

It's Tuesday and I just finished work. I'm on my way to Ally's now so I can talk to her. She still never mentioned wanting to talk, just to hangout. I can't believe she hasn't brought this up yet. Did she really think I wouldn't find out eventually?

I pull into my driveway and take my purse and walk straight to Ally's. I knock at the door and hear some shuffling before the door opens. "Hi sweetheart" Ally hugs me and I step inside. "How does pasta sound for lunch?" I bend down to take off my shoes and mumble "great." Ally furrows her brows. "Alright, let's go sit, I've missed you." I smile weakly and we walk over. Ally loads up our plates and we sit at the table. There's an uncomfortable silence but I don't want to break it. I'm quite upset and I'm not sure if I'll be able to contain my emotions.

Ally clears her throat which grabs my attention. "Y/N are you okay?" I nod and shove a bite of pasta in my mouth, while continuing to stare at my plate. "Okay, well I wanted to talk to you about something but you seem upset?" Wow, now she wants to talk. I look at Ally "what do you want to talk about?" Ally tries to scan my features but I remain impartial and continue making eye contact, not allowing her in. "Well, um I didn't want you to be in a bad mood when I said this, but" I cut her off "for fucks sake I'm not. What. is. It.?" Ally looks completely taken back, unable to hide her surprise of my outburst and the confusion that scatters across her face.

"Well on the weekend, actually after you left, I picked up Oz. He kinda asked if we like each other, and" I interrupt "and you told him." Ally opens her mouth but quickly closes it and nods. She goes to speak again, successful with this attempt "you knew?" I scoff "yeah Ally, I knew. Why the hell didn't you tell me? I had to find out from my kid, completely caught off guard, not prepared to share this." Ally has this remorseful look into her eyes "so you are mad, why didn't you tell me you knew?" I put my fork down "are you kidding? Why didn't YOU TELL ME Oz knew?" Ally pauses for a few moments and reaches for my hand, placing hers on top of mine "I'm sorry." I retract my hand "you didn't have to tell Oz, you could have lied. That way your son wouldn't have told mine. It's not their business."

Ally takes a moment before saying "look don't blame Oz" I scoff before raising my voice "I DON'T blame oz. I blame YOU! You specifically did the opposite of what I wanted, didn't consider my feelings, even though I explicitly told you what they were." Ally begins to raise her voice back "did you want me to lie to my fucking kid Y/N?" I roll my eyes "It's not lying you just didn't have to say anything. Change the subject." Ally laughs "Oh right, so you've been giving me these one word messages, ignoring my calls for the last couple days, being completely immature because I didn't tell you right away, and look how mad you are. So I can 'not say anything' to my kid but when I did that to you, you got upset." I stand up from the table "Jesus Ally I'm an adult, you owe me an explanation!! You should have told me. I deserve that. Instead I was blindsided and had my own kid confront me!" Ally stands with me, her voice wavering "look I'm sorry but I didn't want to lie to Oz. I wanted to tell you but I got too busy with work and didn't want to text you what happened, and you barley answered my texts anyway." I feel bad but that being said what she did was still wrong. I'm not going to waver so easily "right so instead a better way was for my kid to tell me after school." Ally begins to speak but I keep going "You know what? I thought I knew you better. I thought you'd be more considerate. Maybe take into account what I want? You said it was fine when we talked about it Saturday, and now look. Maybe we shouldn't continue this. This is exactly why I didn't want to tell our kids. If they were more involved they could get hurt." I've said my peace and left the dining room, adamant on leaving this house. 

Ally walks across the table and grabs my wrist, making me face her "Don't you think it would hurt them more to pull away for no reason? This is all in your head Y/N." I yank my wrist away and turn around, heading for the door. "I don't think so, Ally." Ally grabs my wrist again spinning my around so I'm right in front of her. I can feel her hot breath on my face "Yes it is! Y/N you and I are Happy. Our kids approve of our relationship too, what more could you ask for? I know you didn't want to tell them so soon, and I'm really sorry I told Oz. Please understand. I just think it would be way more damaging to pull away with no real reason". Ally's chest is heaving and I glance at her lips before meeting her eyes again when she continues "honestly, I think you're scared. And that's okay. I know dating again is super new for you, but I really love you and want to be here for you. It doesn't have to be so scary, you aren't alone you know?" I see a tear drop from Ally's cheek and graze my thumb over her cheek bone to catch it. I feel tears welling in my own eyes "You love me"? Ally laughs and more tears escape her eyes "Yes you idiot." I rest both hands on her cheeks and kiss her passionately, tasting both our salty tears in the process, but I don't care. I break away from the kiss, resting my forehead on hers, both of us breathing heavy with our tear stained faces. "I love you too." Ally brings her hands to my waist, kissing me deeply.