Cursed Blessing

chapter three

Jackie's P.O.V

I woke up to an empty bed, Andre was nowhere in sight and the memories of last night hit me all at once as I got embarrassed thinking about the sounds i was making as my friend fucked me. The door opened and Andre came in with two trays in his hands and when he saw me he smiled softly.

"You're finally awake, saved me the trouble of waking you up" He laughed awkwardly and set one of the trays on my lap and sat next to me, we ate in silence which was surprisingly comfortable and not awkward like i expected.

"About what happened last nigh-''

"it was a mistake, can you please forget about it?' I cut him off and the uncomfortable atmosphere came rushing in, he looked at me shocked and seemed to not know what to say so he just sat there with his mouth agape.

"I didn't think it was a mistake and I'm sure I'm not gonna be able to forget what happened" he started getting frustrated and put his tray aside and fully turned his body to me.

"Jackie I've loved you from sine the first day we met and I should have let you know about my feelings from the star what happened last night felt like a dream come true and your telling me that you think it's mistake? So it was just a hook up for you?'' He started getting heated and i didn't know what to say but i didn't want him to misunderstand me.

"No it wasn't but it wasn't supposed to happen I- we're friends for gods sake!''

"I want to be more than friends Jackie.....'' He started to get teary eyed, "look me in the eye and tell me that you regret what happened last night Jackie because we both know that's bull" he looked at me with a serious expression as i hesitated to tell him how I felt because i really wasn't sure about all of this and I-

"It was a mistake.....It's disgusting and all i want is to forget this ever happened and go back to the way tings were before" I looked him in the face and watched as his expression changed from a hurt one to a blank one, he looked like he wanted to cry and my heart ached.

"You think I'm disgusting? You want everything to go back to normal? You were the one who was moaning for me to fuck you harder with spit leaking out of the side of your mouth......We'll see how long you'll last before wanting to be fucked like that again." He got up to leave but stopped, " I'm going out and I don't want you here when I get back" He didn't even look at me when he left, i sat there regretting what i said already....I didn't mean to say it like that at all but it just came out wrong. I really didn't want to hurt him.

                          
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As 4 weeks passed Alexandre was avoiding me like the plague, he even chose to sit by one of his ex's in our class than his usual seat next to me. I don't blame him, i was kind of harsh but i really didn't know what to say, i was confused about my own sexuality and god knows my dad is most likely homophobic.

I sighed as i picked at my food- my mom, my dad, my brother and I were having our occasional family dinner. My mother couldn't eat anything solid because my little brother decided to get into a fight at school as father decided to knock my mom unconscious.

"How's school, Jackie?'' He asked, the sound of his loud obnoxious voice made everyone flinch. "it was fine father, my teachers said I made the honor role" i kept my head low.

"You better keep away from those girls, I'm practically sponsoring that abortion clinic" he laughed, i hated the way he sounded so amused with himself but i know i'm no better than this scumbag. I suddenly felt sick as my lunch and current meal came back up and i vomited all over the floor, my mother and brother came over to me and comforted me while my father just cursed and left.

"What's wrong baby? Do you feel sick?" Mother gave me a glass of water and rubbed my lower back. "The smell of the food just made me sick, can you I go up to my room?" I asked and my brother helped me up, Carrying me to my room and he decided to sleep with me.

"When you leave for collage...who'll protect me and mom?" he teared up and buried his face in my chest, i hugged him back and sighed. "You're coming with me, I'll get a job and both of us can survive...It's moms choice if she wants to come or not" I said while running my fingers through his hair, my mom has had opportunities to leave dad but she never did, she said it was because he's only home twice a year and she doesn't have to think about what her next meal is...so she'll take the beating as long as her children are fed and gets a good education.

I used to resented her for staying but now I just want to take her somewhere far away, where he can't hurt her or my brother anymore.

I woke up the next morning feeling as if the lower part of my stomach was being ripped apart, my back ached and organs felt as if they were shifting. I told mom i still wasn't feeling well so she let me stay at home, by the time lunch reached I had felt a bit better but i still couldn't hold down any food or water.

"I think you should go to the doctor, I'll drive you baby" Mother caressed my cheek, i nodded weakly and followed her to the garage where we got into her favorite car and drove off. It took us about 3 hours to get there because we didn't go to the normal hospital, we went to the university to see my private doctor. When we got there he took some blood samples and after a few hours came back into the room looking at his charts confused, he asked my mother to leave the room ad when she did he sat down and sighed.

"Are you sexually active Mr. Mchall?" He looked at me with a serious expression.

"Yeah, i had a girlfriend but we broke up a f-"

"I mean... Have you had sexual intercourse with anyone of the same sex?" He gave me a looked and I started to sweat.

"So what if i have? How does that matter" i sat up.

"You're  3 weeks pregnant Mr. Mchall"