trapped in my own fears

Chapter 7 Surgery

We both looked at the doctor as she slowly enterd the room she had a conserded look on her face like she had somthing bad to tell me.

"Kat you have to go in for some major surgery the crash did some damage to your stomach area and if we don't fix it the damages could be fatal."

I started crying at the thought of dying. I didn't want to. I had so much I wanted to do not to mention I'm young and I'm not even finished with high school! My aunt looked at me wirh tears in her eyes.

"Kat it's going to be ok I'll be here when you get out of surgery I promise nothing will happen I lost my brother But I'm not going to lose you I don't know what I would do if I lost two people in 2 days"

I looked at the doctor and asked when they planned on doing the surgery

"In approximently 45 minutes. The surgeon is driving here from a different hospital. In the meantime just relax the nurses will be in here in 15 minutes to get you ready. Don't worry sweetheart everything will be alright and your getting a good surgeon. He'll take good care of you."

I wasn't so sure what to say. Just the thought of getting surgery done is super scary. I would always think about the worse that could happen like waking up during surgery or even dying.  I looked at my aunt who was trying not to cry. I could tell she was just as scared as I was.

"Aunt Marisa please promise me you won't leave till I go in I don't want to be alone."

She nodded at me and had this look in her eyes like she wanted to break down in tears but she didn't want to cry in front of me soon the nurses came and started asking me questions like my name date of birth the usual questions they always ask and the stared putting in the ivs and a paper hat to put on my head. I waited a little bit to put it on the nurses were nice to me and made me laugh after they left so the medicine could take effect. I couldn't help but ask my aunt Marissa what my dad was like as a child. She told me some funny story's about my dad as a child like when he was 6 and she convinced him he was a dog and tried to bite the mail man. I never laughed so hard but it was also sad because I know I'll never get to see him again or see him attempting to do yoga I wish I could of told him goodbye why couldn't it been me that died.

"Aunt Marisa promise me If I die during surgery you will make sure my friend Sadie gets everything and my boyfriend gets my photos in my room. He loves them. I miss him. I don't  want to be buried in a dress. I want to be buried in blue jeans and a tank top and high tops. I would want to be wearing not something I wouldn't wear on a normal day if I was alive ya know."

She giggled and smiled at me I think I surprised her with what I said.

"Kat sweetie if that's what you want to wear then that's okay. I will say though that's a little unusual. I've always seen females in dresses but that's just me. I can tell I'm going to learn a lot from you."

She rubbed my arm and kissed me on the head. She just stared at me for a few moments when nurse Miranda came in. 

"Kat it's time for your surgery. Let's say goodbye to your aunt."

I looked at her and waved goodbye. She had a tear in her eye as she watched them start to push me out

"Kat I'll be here when you get back. Don't worry. It'll be okay. I love you."

We finally got out the door and started down the hall. I couldn't help but notice how hot the guy nurses was standing next to my bed. I know I shouldn't be saying that but seriously if you could see him you would understand. I heard nurse Miranda say my name.

 
"Kat how do you like your aunt so far? Do you think you guys will get along? She seems like a nice women I'm sure she is going to treat you right."