Levi x Reader///Melancholy

just like before

y/n

somebody told me slowed

"It's gone," I growled. 

After one last blast of steam, the Colossal Titan disappeared. It destroyed the canons and breached the gate. I looked over at Eren who was still looking out with a disappointed look. 

I punched him lightly in the shoulder, "Come on idiot! Just cause it's gone doesn't mean we still don't have work to do. The titans are coming." 

Why is this happening now? The day after we chose what regiments we are going to be in? It was strange to me that out of all the days the Colossal Titan could  show up - it would be today. I guess there's no point in trying to figure out the ways of a monster. 

It was chaos. Just like five years ago. Even though I had a blade and training, I still felt like a lost little girl. I kept calm on the outside because that was the best I could do, but on the inside every time I looked somewhere, a flash of what happened the first titan attack popped up into my mind. I even could feel the warmth and weight of my sister on my shoulder.  

"Come on. Get a grip," I whispered to myself.

Trying to pull myself  together before anybody could see me losing my mind, I decided to go to the front lines. I was definitely better at dealing with titans than dealing with people. I slashed through four napes of normal titans. Their rancid smelling, steaming blood splattered across my face and across my clothes.   

I landed on a roof of a building with Armin, Eren, and a couple of other 104th group cadets. I was panting and I switched my dull blade out for a sharp. I looked at my comrades who had no blood on them and looked like they have been doing nothing.  

"What have you been doing?" I snarled at them, "Let's go!" 

Following my orders, we all began to attack the scattered titans. I ran on roofs, zipped between buildings, and spun around in the air trying my best to save some gas. All of us were running through when a blonde looking titan jumped right towards us. 

I barely avoided the gaping mouth. I stood with my comrades as we waited for the titan to remove itself from the clock tower. When it showed us its mouth a soldier dangling from it, his face was just fear and despair. 

I looked away with annoyance at the situation we were in. This was my first time losing a comrade but the only thing I could think about was that I was glad I didn't get close to any of them because then this whole thing would've been worse. 

I couldn't move. I watched Eren and the others fight their own battles, many losing, with Armin. I needed to catch my breathe. I felt my chest cramping because my heart was pounding against it with such vigor. One by one, I watched my comrades die. I watched them take their last breathe. I looked over at Armin who's eyes were wide and filled with terror. 

"Armin, this is what happens in this life. We aren't doing anything to help by standing here," I breathed out before connecting my ODM gear to another building. 

I zipped off hoping that my words had some kind of effect on him. He had a lot of improving to do, and I didn't want to see such potential die so early on like this.  

I think I killed two more titans but I noticed that my gas was already just below half full. I looked out at the rest of the city. Buildings were burning and crumbling, I saw cadets flying through the air only to be eaten, and of course I saw titans still roaming around. It was like no matter how you killed, they always multiplied. Wary of my situation, I assumed it would be best to join other people just in case my gas did run out. 

I flew throughout the city, trying to find anyone, when I spotted Armin, Conny, and Mikasa standing on the building. 

"What's the sit-"

I stopped myself when I stared at the sight in front of me. It was a huge, strong looking titan fighting other titans. It was pinpointing the weak spot and killing them while completely ignoring us. I was really amazed. 

"Where's Eren?" I asked making Mikasa and Armin flinch.  

"H-he's dead," Armin blurted out like it was hard for him to speak, "Because he was trying to save me." 

I sighed with disappointment. I appreciated Eren's determination (even if he was always too loud about it) and I thought that if I were to really enjoy anybody's presence - it would be him. I bit my lip thinking about what to do next. 

"I'm almost empty on gas and as much as I want to rely on this titan, we need a plan," I said.  

"Let's attack the titans who are fighting the abnormal one and then head over to the supply depot," Armin suggested.

We all agreed with his plan and followed through with it. When we got to the storage depot, that's when things began not to work. Nobody was refilling their gas tanks nor changing out their blades. 

"What's the issue?" Armin asked Jean who was unnecessarily upset. 

"There are titans inside the storage depot. About seven," he filled us in. 

I'm sure we would've been able to take them down if our gear was working and it wasn't such an enclosed space. I looked over at Armin who was clearly thinking about something. I wasn't too worried, Armin may have sucked at combat but I had faith that his abilities to devise a plan were going to get us out of this situation. 

I was right because after shooting the titans in the eyes, we killed them, and got our fuel and blades. We were going to retreat, it wasn't logical to keep on fighting at the moment. As  we retreating we saw the mysterious titan still fighting others but most likely tired from his continuous battle it collapsed. 

Out of all things that could've happened - Eren emerged from its body. My eyes widened with confusion, that was even possible?