Love hurts

H.T.T.

See, I never intended on falling in love at 16 but I did. I loved every moment of it. I loved having you around for every season of every year. I loved that you met my family and took me out to the most
randomness of places. I loved our talks about the future and our late night chats on the phone about life. I loved the idea of always having you around that I made it a permanent residence in my mind, heart, and soul. However, that wasn't the case. We began drifting, arguing, and becoming angry at one another. You would hide things from me and I would ignore them so I could keep you around longer. I know that's selfish but you  have been apart of my life for 4 years that I never thought in a million years that you would leave. Until, you actually did. I know I wasn't easy to be around and it got harder with the diagnosis. I find myself wondering what I could've done differently. Nothing. Nothing I could've done would have made you stay with me. You made up your mind and I only  hope you made the right choice. Wishing you all the best, even if I wasn't it.
~Kate