"Metawin, don't do this to me. Let me explain.
"Explain what? Explain to me how much you enjoyed toying with my emotions because you knew that no matter what you do, I'd stay? Explain to me how much you found these events amusing while I kept all th...
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•METAWIN OPAS-IAMKAJORN•
January 2020
"This art gallery is very amazing khun phi, and I love that temperature and humidity is ideal and though I've seen a lot of people, it's still not so crowded and everyone moves so quietly like a courtesy to the other guests. It's such a comfortable place," I blabber while Bright and I are walking discreetly on the aisle until we both stop in front of a wonderful portrait of a woman who I believe is underwater.
"This masterpiece is from a famous Paris-based photographer, Marta Bevacqua. It's a part of her underwater photography series called Silence. Her images somehow masterfully depict a completely enticing combination of pureness, the innocence of the model's beauty, and a painfully aesthetic portrayal of death. It showcases the sense of silence underwater, and the finality of the subject. It's beautiful, isn't it? This one is called, One Final Kiss," Bright says, eyes shimmering with that upward curl on the side of his lips, and I stare at the still image once more with an ounce of understanding to what he really finds interesting.
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"So this is what you meant when you mentioned about showing to the viewers the amount of emotion that you want to convey through your viewfinder, right? That people who would look at the image would feel the same way that you did when you took the photo carefully, because right now, I am feeling a lot of emotions just looking at this picture."
"Chai khrab," Bright nods, looks at me, and loops our fingers together making me smile a small one - ignoring the anxiousness still lingering inside of me. Afraid that someone might recognize him and tell Gun about it, and everything about his happy life would be ruined because of my selfishness. And yet, everytime he touches me - I burn, but I still want it that way, and I still want to feel the amount of burn that he can give me. Until there's no more feeling left side of me when he decides to leave me hanging in the air once more. I mean, he would soon be leaving me anyway so I'm just savoring every moment that we have right now and then gone.
And when I said that I am okay that he is getting married to the man that he loves, and that I would just be happy to be able to see him and be with him after he's done with his husband - I know that that's not what i want. No, being someone else's lover behind their marriage is wrong on all levels even if it's not our intention to hurt Gun or anyone else in the process. And yet cheating is always wrong, and it shouldn't be romanticized nor should be acknowledged like what we are doing now. Whatever I thought of earlier about asking him to stay with me forever were just words out of desperation to have him back into my arms.
