The gun's mercy

Chapter 24: A burden

- Uhm, hello?

- Oh, yeah, sorry.. I just uhm.. Didn't know what to say. It's kind of weird to hear you saying that.. I was a little bit surprised.

- Oh.. Uh, is it really that weird?

I was surprised to see that he didn't make a comment about this emotional side of me. Well, after his words, he was also surprised. Or that's what he said.

- Actually.. I have some news for you.

It sounded as if he was gonna tell me something bad happened. Maybe someone died.. Or was taken hostage or or-

- Uhm... What.. What news?

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I heard a shaky sigh coming out from the other side. He exhaled and inhaled a few times before actually speaking, and when he did, my eyes went wide.
 - Me an' Rin are officially together.

I choke on my air and stay unmoved a few seconds to process everything. I knew that 'Samu was in love with Rin, he made it obvious since we were still teenagers, but I never thought they would actually be together. 'Samu really wasn't the one to be all brave about telling Rin of his feelings and all that. Wow... A lot have changed since I came here.

Okay, maybe telling him about my accident wasn't a good idea. I mean, I don't want to take his happiness away. Whenever he's happy, he usually grins like an idiot and is very flustrated. That face he makes whenever he's happy determines me to fight more. I could already feel the smile that spread on his face from miles away. Maybe I shouldn't put the burden on his shoulders now. He doesn't always have the opportunity to be with his crush. 

- Congratulations you guys!! I say, trying to be cheerful, to be happy for him and Suna. But it was really hard to act as if everything is fine in my condition. 

Ever since I left Hyogo, dark thoughts always invaded my mind. I am not how I used to be. I changed. I don't particulary know the factors, but being away from my twin is, of course, one of them. We were never away from each other, and will never be. 

After all this shit ends, I want to move in back with 'Samu. I don't care if we'll live in a flat or house, I just want to hear him snoring in the room next to mine, to always fight with him, so that at the end of the day, we're both sorry and we hug each other.

I just want...to make sure he didn't left me. Because he's not like the rest.

- Thanks 'Tsumu..  I could hear his soft chuckle tickling my ear from the other line. 

He didn't deserve to be in the mafia. He's a pure soul, in comparison of mine. I was always the 'troublemaker' of the family. Well... That until the problems I was getting into destroyed our old family apart. 

But he chose his destiny alone. He wanted to be next to be no matter the circumstances. 

- Anyways.. How's Kita-san doin'? I haven't talked to 'im in a while. I said, kind of changing the subject. But that is actually the truth. I haven't talked to him since I came here in Tokyo. He said, and I quote: 'We can never know when Oikawa's men bugged our work phones. It is safer that way, Atsumu. Sometimes... We all need to do sacrifices so nobody gets into trouble.'

- He's doin' fine. After that attack, well.. We started ta be more careful than before. Phew. That's a relief to hear. At least they're doing fine. 

- I'm glad ta hear that... A quite long pause has installed between us, when I talked again, worries and dark ugly thoughts controlling my mind once again. Are you alright? Ya hurt or anythin'-

I was interrupted by the sound of the doorbell ringing through the phone. I moved away the phone from my ear, to avoid going deaf, and then placed it next to my ear again.

- Sorry about that 'Tsumu. I invited Sunarin over to our place, I didn't expect ya ta call me. Well then, talkin' ta later, take care, bye-  And with that being said our call ended.

He didn't even wait for me to say my goodbye back or thank him. Wow. That never happened to me before. Well.. I guess it was actually better to not tell him about the so called 'incident'. I should just let him be happy for once and stop being a burden that is weighting him down.

It took me a few solid seconds to realize that 'Samu wasn't on the other line with me anymore. I don't think I ever heard him be so enthusiastic until now.

Rin really is something else. He's the onigiri to 'Samu's hunger. He's the addictive drug to 'Samu's craziness and insanity. (My cousin who is 23 would die to be in Suna's place ;) She's an Osamu simp.✌ btw Maria, if you're reading this, love you <3)

I sighed. Alright then, it's finally time to call Kiyoko. I hope she won't freak out. I don't want to upset her, she doesn't deserve it.

I scrolled a bit more through my contacts until I found my girlfriend's name. I closed my eyes a bit and lightly tapped on the bright screen.

(A/N: text like this is Atsumu

           text like this is Kiyoko)

- Hey baby, why didn't you call until now?

- Heya baby.. I say, the words coming out of my mouth harshly. Well... I laugh awkwardly, not knowing how to actually tell her what happened.

- Well? What happened? Are you alright?

- Well, 'm gonna be honest.. 'm not really well. I explained everything to Kiyoko, from the whole story to the smallest details.

Only reminding myself of what happened sent cold chills down my spine. I wish nothing would have happened.. It was my fault- Well now that I think better about it, maybe it really isn't my fault. I'm exaggerating a bit sometimes, well, everyone does.

- Baby.. I'm coming over to the hospital, send me your location, now.

~☆~AUTHOR'S NOTE:~☆~ 

Heyy my dear readers!! <3 I'm sorry for my delayed update, but my motivation to write was kind of down. I don't plan on discontinuing the story, but I came up with ideas for other 3-4 fanfics I want to write, so if I publish them, I would really appreciate if you checked them up as well. Thank you very much for all the votes and comments, they mean a lot!! That's everything for now, bye-bye loves~ ♡