Bakugo's Wish

3

I wake up suffocating, my hands at my chest trying to pull the nonexistent slime from my throat again. It's not there, I'm fine. I'm alive. I let myself just breathe for a few minutes soaking in the fact that I am fine.

I am free.

After what felt like forever I got out of bed and grabbed my clothes before heading to the shower again. It's been almost a month since Kiri and I started dating and things seem to be working out but I still haven't told him about the nightmares. I'm just not ready, not yet.

I see the clock before opening the door. Of course it's only 2:30 am, it's not like I need sleep or anything. I start to grumble to myself as I walk to the shower not even caring that Iida had gotten on the elevator with me to lecture me about being up so late. I mean fuck, why is he even up then? I just rolled my eyes and when the elevator stopped on the ground floor I made my way to the showers.

Once I was clean and dry again I made my way to the kitchen and started making myself some breakfast. Just a couple eggs and a couple pieces of toast. Just enough to keep me from getting too hungry later but not enough to upset my already angry stomach.

Icyhot and Deku came in and started searching the pantry again. This is becoming a nightly ritual. "Grab some plates," I grunted and Deku grabbed three while Icyhot got us some drinks. I think all we have is milk but whatever.

I serve the eggs and toast and we sit down to eat in silence. They looked as terrible as I felt. How are we all coming down at the same time anyway? We are all on differnt floors and I sure as fuck don't text them. I guess it doesn't matter anyway not really. Deku washes the dishes while I dry and Icyhot puts them away again. Yeah our nightly ritual or morning whatever the fuck you want to call it.

"I need sleep. But everytime I close my eyes..." Deku lets out a sigh, I raise an eyebrow at him. Is he really going to talk about it? What is he so afraid of anyway? I did a lot of unforgivable shit to him but even now he doesn't seem to hold any of it against me. So what is haunting him?

"When I was little my brothers and sister and I used to sleep together. We would hold each other and the nightmares stayed away for the most part. Not always but it was easier," Icyhot stated in his annoying monotone voice, maybe it's not mine so much as he is just too tired to actually care? It's a thought.

"We don't have siblings though," Deku frowned and I just turned away. Like hell I'm going to open up to them!

"Yeah, ever since the dorms it's not like I could do that anyway. Maybe that's why they're so bad again?" Icyhot shrugged, putting away the last dish.

"Maybe..." Deku started mumbling to himself about them maybe sleeping together.

"Nerd he can't understand you like I can," I groaned, snapping him back to the present and Icyhot just looked at him curiously.

"He wants to know if you would try sleeping with him to see if that would help you both out. Of course I don't need that shit," I grumbled and I think I see Icyhot actually smile. I must be seeing shit.

"If it works then I guess I won't be seeing you anymore. Night extras," I yawn while giving them a half wave before leaving the kitchen. Okay so we may have gotten used to each other's company, sue me for being a decent fucking person.

I went back to my room and looked at the clock. 4:48 might as well stay up and get some studying done.

Again.

***

It's been two weeks since the last time I saw either Icyhot or Deku in the middle of the night. They seemed happier at school too and I heard a rumor that they had started dating but I seriously doubt that.