Bakugo's Wish

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Bakugo

"Kacchan, I'm quirkless." Deku cried and I felt my whole world just collaspe out from under me. Izuku Midoriya, my best friend and the one who is supposed to open a hero agency with me, is quirkless? How in the hell was that even supposed to work?

The emptiness inside of me only seemed to let more of myself hollow out and then when I looked up again a boy with a stinging quirk was stabbing him in the arm, laughing. I set off little explosions scaring him away but how long could I really protect him? Can I even protect him?

***

We are in elementary school and things haven't gotten any better at all. Thankfully Deku and I are going to go to the same middle school but that doesn't stop what I have to do now. I can still feel so much pain and every time I see him.

It. Just. Gets. Worse.

"Oi Deku meet me at the tree at the park after school today." I growled at him already angry from a bunch of other dumbasses trying to hurt him today. How many of these extras do I have explode at?

"Okay Kacchan! I'll go there right after school!" Deku smiled at me, I could already feel my heart breaking even more. I don't want to do this!

***

"You're nothing more than a useless Deku! Stop following me! Stop talking to me! Stop calling me that ridiculous nickname, I'm NOT your friend ANYMORE!" I screamed at him under the tree. My 'friends' just a little ways away listening to everything I was saying. "I WILL hurt you," I growled in warning, letting my voice go almost silent as I gave him the warning. I walked away, I walked away from everyone. Leaving the dumbasses staring at me with wide eyes before they jumped to follow me. Deku was left behind sobbing his eyes out and even with my back turned I knew he was staring at me, praying, that I would turn around and tell him it was all a bad joke.

But I can't, if I do then he will only get hurt worse.

I will only hurt him worse.

***

I'm so alone, even surrounded by all these people that tell me I'm so great I only feel alone. I force a smirk like everything is great or that I couldn't be better at all. I'm lying.

I'm alone.

I see Deku walk into the room and I don't feel so lonely anymore, but I can't talk to him. Not after last time.

The teacher put him right behind me.

Why must I be alone even when I'm surrounded? Why can't I just be free? Is there anyone out there that actually cares?

I look up and see Deku quietly go to his seat, he didn't even look up into my eyes, instead keeping them trained on the floor.

Much later, I was sitting alone in class during lunch, I needed to get away. It feels so wrong to be with so many people and yet all I feel is hollow.

"Kacchan? I know you don't want me to talk to you but are you okay? Can I help at all?" Deku begged and when I looked up I saw his bloodshot eyes full of tears already. I felt like my heart was cracking open, I already know this is going to hurt, why do I have to do it? Why can't I just be free?

"HUH? WHAT THE FUCK IS IT TO YOU, USELESS DEKU!" I said so many things that day and I even blew my quirk towards his face, making him fall down before I walked past him as if he was nothing but a bug.

The sound of shattering glass exploding in my mind and soul, each step I took away from him only breaking me more. Once in the bathroom I checked and made sure I was alone and then all the pieces finally came tumbling down shattering as if it could actually hit the concrete floor below me. I felt my knees bruise when I landed but the tears already flowing down my face wouldn't stop.