kalon l.s

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LOUIS' POV

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TRIGGER WARNING : TALK OF EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE EX PARTNER
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o : so your fucking harry then?

o : knew you were a slut

o : he'll leave you, just like i did

o : saw you two walking around

setting my phone down quickly, ignoring the other texts along with the sense of dread. a deep pain taking home in my chest.

"what's wrong, baby?" harry asks as he walks to the couch from the kitchen, a bowl in his hand.

it was spring break so we both had nothing to do, causing us to wake up after noon and lay around all day.

causing me to have plenty of time worrying about a certain ex.

when we were dating he was always very mad at me. he said a lot of hurtful things. it was mostly my fault for doing things to piss him off. it just hurt that he said them.

but i've learned since then. learned that no one will take me as i am, so i just enjoy flings as they come and go.

i haven't heard from him in about two years though, so this was a ....surprise . last time we talked he told me 'i was your last chance at love. good luck being alone forever.' that really put the cherry on top.

i went to a therapist one time - i hated it so i stopped going -, and she told me that is where my anger stems from.

the constant arguing with him, having to defend myself. one good thing is he never hit me. more like used his words and insults to his advantage and threw those at me.

i never told anyone. the lads just think we ended because he moved. he did, just a few months after he broke up with me. i guess he has moved back now.

the scary thing is, he saw me. he like... watched me. he saw harry too, i don't like him having it out for him.

he was always very possessive, and jealous. i actually had to stop hanging out with the lads for a while. i usually would just sneak to their houses when he was at work or out of town.

i know it wasn't the best relationship, but i made him the was he is. i always wanted something. always nagged him. it got to the point where he started to insult my body because he didn't want to have sex because 'you're constantly eating.'

i found out he cheated a few months before he ended things. he told me, 'it was nothing.' it probably wasn't, i was overthinking. except for the fact he got with her after he ended things with me. to my knowledge they're still together.

"nothing." i reply, once he sits down beside me.  i move to put my feet in his lap, once he gets in a comfortable position.

he nods his head humming, taking a bite of the ice cream he found. "i have to go back to my flat in a few days for mail." he smiles, a distant expression on his face.