kalon l.s

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HARRY' POV

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TRIGGER WARNINGS : DRUG USE, ALCOHOL ABUSE, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, HOMOPHOBIC INSULTS !!
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FIVE YEARS AGO!
age : 16

the skies colorful blues melt in with the whites of the clouds. the sun is just about to set, causing the edge of the horizon to turn orange and pink. the birds flying from tree to tree, going to their nests after a long day. the windy air takes my brown curls with the breeze in its path.

my body lays on top of the dewy wet grass, after long hours of rain on this november day. playing with the fallen leaves between my fingers, the trees getting ready for a hard winter. my nose has long gone red along with my ears from the chilly weather. the tips of my fingers and toes numb and tingling.

i'm going to come out today.

my family and i have just moved from chesire to doncaster because my mom has a warrant. she didn't want to risk seeing the same cops again and again. so she figured it would be easier to get away if no one knew her. no one would know she had a warrant and want to pull her over.

that all meaning i have had to move schools. new friends, new people, new ... hot ass guys that are friends with my friends and they are very gay. i have my own suspicions that i was gay since i was about thirteen and saw my moms special magazines. i haven't told anyone except my old friend from chesire. he said it was totally fine that i like guys.

so today i will tell my parents. i mean they cant hate me... they do bad things too.

my mom is a drug dealer, she also really loves the casino... shes gotten better though. i'm proud of her, shes here now.

back when my dad died a few years ago she kind of left me... i lived with my grandma until about a year ago. my mom had it really hard and went into a horrible depression, and i guess during those years she forgot i lost someone too. its okay though shes here now and i had my grandma anyways.

when she came back though it was amazing, she even buys me stuff now. i know, i know, all mothers should buy their kids things. but she was just gone so long and i didn't get that. before she was even gone i rarely ever saw her. she would shut and lock her door, even block it with laundry baskets and vacuum cleaners. the part that really hurt me was she would listen to me banging on the door and yelling for her to open up just so i could have a hug, maybe even just see her for five minutes. i never got to.

she told me a few months ago she locked me out because she didn't want me to see her high. now she just does it in front of me. i don't think i can even imagine her without and pipe in her hands.

when she left me she stayed at her boyfriends or some drug den downtown. she wasn't completely uninvolved, she would come take a shower or do her laundry when her house at the time didn't have water. she usually tried to do that when i was at school though....

the only way we bond anymore is when i do something illegal. i stole one time when i was with my grandma. she made me go back to the store and return the item, and told my mom. my mom just sat me down and told me to only steal when i'm by myself or when i'm with another thieves. then proceeded to give me tips...