Edluca oneshots <3

red is a gentle color

Two: SH, blood, intense thoughts and racing thoughts. Feelings of not being good enough.

Luca pov.
We just got back from a match with me, Edgar, Nortan, Naib. Edgar was being pursued most of the match untill the hunter switched targets during detention and Nortan for downed and returned to the manor early. The 3 of us we walking in and a very pissed Nortan was waiting. We walked in and the scene that was about to unfold was something I would have never expected.

"Edgar what the fuck?! You could've rescued me! You had a painting and I know how did. You kites were shit. I had to rescue twice and you didn't even make an effort to get me!" Nortan yelled in frustration.

" Nortan calm down we still got a win." Naib said taking Edgar's side.
Edgar just stood there. It looked like he just seen a ghost.

"No, he's always so high of himself he always makes it out the gate and leaves everyone behind. Unless it's Luca. For whatever ungodly reason he's head over heels for you. See you're lucky. The minute you announce the hunter is near you he's coming to you in a heartbeat. It's stupid. you're nothing special yet oddly he cares for you more than anything else. Except maybe himself." Nortan was clearly angry. To be honest I don't know how to respond I just awkwardly stood there. Untill I saw Edgar bolt. I've never seen him run so fast. He's injured even and he booked it up the stairs and I heard a door slam.

" Wow! I didn't know you could upset him. He deserves it though. A snobby rich kid could never understand how people feel. They're all the same. Perfect in every way and acting like they're gods."

" Shut up will you? You don't know anything about him and you clearly don't care to." I said walking up stairs check on him.

Edgar pov.
I slammed the door and sunk. My body aches. The hunter was Mary and I have some fresh cuts still open but it doesn't matter. I'm about to add more anyway.
He's right. I am stupid. I can't do anything right. I'm such a coward. I've never been good enough for anything or anyone. I'm a disappointment honestly. My family didn't even want me around. They were just happy a brought them money. My art was never good enough for him and definitely isn't now. I don't know how Luca puts up with me. I'm such an idiot. It won't take long for him s
To leave me completely. Everything leaves. I hurt all over. My head is killing me.
"You're not good enough."
"Why waste time trying?"
"Everything leaves"
"You can't even do a simple rescue. How in the world are you supposed to maintain a relationship?"
" All you do is cry. Someone needs to put you in your place."
" Awe she's such a pretty girl!"
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" Would you care to dance miss?"
" Absolutely not! Who do you think you are?! I'm a boy you idiot!"
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" Red is a gentle color....."
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Memories and thoughts rush through my head as I cry on the floor. Everything feels like it's spinning and it's so loud. I continue to cry as if it'll make things better.
" Why not slit your wrist. Watch the red stream of blood flow. It's relaxing isn't it? Not like anyone cares if you're hurt. You deserve it anyway."
My thoughts are so overwhelming. I feel like I'm going to vomit. I open my eyes between sobs to slowly crawl to the desks to grad the letter opener from the drawer. I lean against the desk rolling up my sleeves to slide the blade across my wrist. There are many scars from previous times this has happened. No one has noticed though. I plan to keep it that way. Not like they'll care. I hate being alive everything is so painful. I continue to cry as the fresh wounds bleed. I hear something knocking on my door but  to be honest I can't tell if it's real or of my brain is creating it given how it's so loud and my thoughts are racing so fast. I feel light headed but I continue to cry dismissing everything else.

Luca pov.
I slowly made my way to his room thinking of what to say to him and what to do to make him feel better. I finally got there and knocked. I could hear what sounded like crying and sniffles.
Oh no this can't be good.
I knock again but there was no response. I decided to open the door to find a sight I've never seen before.
Edgar was leaned up again the desk tears against his face sleeves rolled up and blood all down his arm and a letter opener in the hand and his other arm was the same. Edgar looked as if he was unconscious because his eyes were closed and he didn't say anything or more. I immediately started to panic trying to figure out what to do. I know he has wounds from Mary I'm sure those, crying and what he just did to himself knocked him out. I ran over to him to try and see if he's awake at least or if I can wake him.
" Edgar! Eddie! Please wake up!" I shook him a little bit but nothing happened. I ran out of the room to go look for Emily or someone to help me. I ran to Emily's office crying and bursting through the door. I saw Emily and Aesop look at me worried faces from my behavior.
"E-edgars passed out. he won't wake up and he has a bunch of wounds!" I said panicking. Emily was with someone else already but Aesop immediately stood up.
" Take me to him."
" O-okay." We ran back fo Edgars room and Aesop crouched down. Examining him.
" He's still alive. Luca can you pick him up and lay him on the bed."
I nodded and did so. He grabbed bandages and got a bowl and water along with a rag and started cleaning up his blood and wounds. I watched anxiously.
Why does he have so many cuts and scars? Why did he never tell me?! I should've came here sooner. I'm sorry.
Aesop finished and said to stay here with him and let Aesop know when he wakes up. I nodded and sat on his bed.
" Edgar.... Why did you never tell me. I'm so sorry. I love you." I softly said knowing he couldn't hear me. I laid down next to him took a small light nap until he woke up...
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(Time skip to the next morning.)
Edgar pov. (sorry for switching so much)
I shot up awake in a panic. My body hurts everywhere. I looked over and saw Luca asleep next to me. All my memories came flooding back. It seemed Luca noticed something was different because he woke and looked at me.
"You alright Eddie?" He asked sleepily.
" Umm...I'm not sure..."
"Come here." He opened his arms.
I laid back down and let him embrace me. He played with my hair relaxing me.
" Why...why did you never tell me?"
" I thought it wouldn't matter. I don't know how you put up with me. It's only a matter of time before you leave." I sighed on the verge of tears again. 
"Edgar! Don't say that! I love you to pieces. I would never leave you. Not ever again. I'm so sorry. Please. Please don't do this to yourself. It hurts me. You don't have to share everything you went through right away. I'll be patient with you and I'll never leave but please don't do this to yourself anymore. I saw your scares when Aesop cleaned and wrapped your arms. I love you please don't hurt yourself...."
Luca was practically death gripping me and we were both crying.
"O-okay. I'm sorry."
After we both calmed down we spent the rest of the day lying in bed and sleeping. I'm glad he stayed with me. I hope he never has to leave again. The first time was horrible I never want to experience it again.

Ahhhh hi. Kinda sad but have it...