Quiero Sentirme Bien (FemReader x AOT)

✧5: I'm GONE ✧

TW: Overdose (again please read all the trigger warnings on the first page)

"Ain't a pill that I didn't take... Just alive tryin'

'Cause, it's been a long day. 'Cause I'm asleep when I R.I.P."

-"When I R.I.P" by Labrinth 

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Eren's POV:

I didn't have the worst life, my life was pretty boring. I had two parents by my side, my mom and my father. The only thing that pissed me off was that my fucking ol' man was cheating on my mom. My parents also wanted to force me to marry my childhood friend, Mikasa. I refused to. I won't let that happen. I saw Mikasa as a sister, but like, an annoying sister. 

The gang and I went to the same school all our lives. We all knew each other.

Sophomore year of high school was the year I lost my virginity. I lost my virginity to some girl who I don't even remember her name. I only wanted to lose it because Reiner and Jean were being annoying. While I left her speechless, I hungered for something more.

(A/N: I recommend listening to When I R.I.P. by Labrinth in this scene.)

After my shitty sex experience, I hung out with Reiner and Bertholdt more. I drifted from my normal friend group. Reiner was the one to introduce me to opioids. We were at some high school party when it happened. 

Reiner was the drug dealer, I forgot how Reiner became one. Reiner, Bertholdt, and I all took opioids together as we arrived at the party. It immediately hit me. This... This was the feeling I hungered for. The room was moving in circles while I tried to catch up with it. Pure euphoria.

It honestly helped me forget my asshole dad and mom fighting.

Fuck my dad. Fuck this arrange marriage with Mikasa. Fuck this girl.