Surrogate Mother?

Chapter 3

The next morning I woke up with a splitting headache from the lack of sleep. It also felt as if someone was trying to pull my eyeballs out of their sockets. I sat up holding my head in between my hands and looked to my left. Soomin was still sleeping peacefully.

I quickly got out of the blankets and went to the bathroom to shower not wanting here to wake up before I left. I don't know what has been happening to me but before at least I could tolerate her but now I can't stand seeing her face.

I walked into the room and Soomin was still sleeping. I quickly took my leave and went to the office. At least for a second I forgot about that girl.

Time flew by as I actually focused on my work and finished it. The only reason I finished it this early was because I wanted to go to the park. Maybe she would be there again.

When the clock struck four pm I started heading out of my office. Many of my employees greeting me on the way out. I just smiled at them as I was in a rush to get to my destination.

I smiled when I finally arrived at the park. There weren't a lot of people like yesterday. The wind blew calmly and created a peaceful atmosphere also with the rustling of the leaves.

I sat on a bench and waited patiently for her to come but she never did. I waited a few hours but nothing happened so I just headed home with a heavy heart.

***

This was my routine for the next couple of days but still then I never saw even a glimpse of her beauty. It was like she had just disappeared into thin air or never existed at all.

Slowly I began to lose all my hope until it was all gone. The worst part was that Soomin began to become clingy and annoying which frustrated me even more.

I got home from another bad day of work. My mood no longer being cheerful as it used to be before. I sighed while taking my shoes and coat off. I walked into the kitchen grabbing a glass of cold water and headed to the living room.

Everything was quiet and peaceful until Soomin came into the room happily making me cringe. She sat next to me, kissing my cheek and hugged me. All I wanted to do was to get her as far away from me as possible but I couldn't.

She pulled away and flashed me the biggest smile I had ever seen on her.

"Jinnie, I've been thinking about something lately and I hope that you will feel the same way I do about it." She said clearly.

"Oh yeah, what us it?"

"I was thinking that maybe we could have a baby. I mean we've been together for five years now. I think it's time to take our relationship to the next level." She replied nervously and played with her fingers.

My eyes almost popped out of my skull as I checked on my saliva.

A BABY!

Is she out of her freaking mind? Does she know how much time, attention and effort you have to put into a baby?

"No." I responded emotionlessly and stood up heading to the bedroom. I could hear her following me.

"Come on Jin, please. A baby would make our relationship and bond stronger." She pleaded with me.

That's the thing I did not want our relationship stronger or have any kind of bond with her. But then again maybe the universe was just telling me to get over that girl so that those things from the dreams would not happen.

"Okay." I replied not happy about this decision at all. She jumped around squealing before throwing herself onto me and kissing my neck.

"Soomin, what are you doing?" I asked trying to get her off me but she clung on like a leech.

"What do you mean 'what am I doing?'... I am making a baby. We need to get started now so that we don't have to wait so long for our little angel." She replied and continued to kiss me.

"Not now Soomin. I am tired. We can try another time. I tried to push her away again but she would not budge.

"Please."

When she saw that I was not giving in she sighed and finally stopped allowing me to go to the room and sleep.

"Goodnight Jinnie." She kissed me one last time and cuddling into my siding.

I did not reply as I just closed my eyes trying to get that girl's image out of my head. Her fragrance also stuck in my mind.

I smiled one more time before falling into a deep sleep.

***

Two months had passed since Soomin and I have been trying to have a baby but nothing had worked. All it brought was tention in the house.

Soomin would always blame herself and I would do my best to try and comfort her. We also began growing even more distant as the time passed. At times we would even fight about stupid and petty things.

And about that girl, she had completely disappeared. It felt like I had just imagined her. I would still go to the park though but not regularly. Maybe once every two weeks.

"Jin." I was woken from my thoughts. I looked to the side and saw Soomin standing by the door. I hummed in response waiting for her to continue.

"I want us to go to the doctor tomorrow. I want to figure out why we can't have a baby. We've been trying for two months now and the result is still negative." Tears started rolling down her cheeks and I brought her into my embrace.

"We will go and I'm sure everything is fine. We just need to give it more time and not lose hope." I comforted her and laid a simple kiss on her head.

I felt guilty because I did not want this or even love her anymore. Maybe it's my fault.