Love, Sex & Regrets

Part 8

Game Over

Jinny got frozen for a bit after hearing those words. She pulled away from Daniel while trying to process what just had happened. She doesn't know what to do or what to say, so she just walked away as fast as she could reaching for the backdoor, not looking back.

When she got out of the club, she stopped a little trying to catch her breath. Then Daniel grabbed her arms form behind.

She pulled away from his grip and weakly punched his chest

"What the hell Daniel . . . why do have to ruin it, why do have to ruin what we have." she said as she uncontrollably sob.

"Ruin? Don't you want something real?"

"I don't want it. I don't need it. I was completely okay with what we have."

"How long are you gonna do this to yourself? . . . How long are you gonna keep denying yourself of the things you truly deserve?" Daniel said with anger in his voice.

She was looking down avoiding Daniel's gaze as he awaits her to say something.

"We can't do this anymore. I can't — I can't do it anymore" she said

"That's the only thing you can say?. . .This is what you always do Jin . . . You always run, when things looks real, uncertain and scary, you just run and take the easy way out."

She didn't say anything. She doesn't know what to say.

Daniel released a huge sigh and just gave up, he went back inside slamming the door.

Her body weakened, she fell on her knees and broke down in tears.

Regrets

She calmed down a little when she got into the cab, looking at the window she thought about every decisions she made in the past, every opportunities and chances she let go, she thought of how things would go hadn't she runaway from everything. Who would she be if she lived with courage to face everything that life offers her?

The what ifs, what if she didn't gave up and dropped out of college, what if she didn't just settled herself in the coffee shop, What if she didn't avoid everything and just overcome it.

What if she just said I love you back to Daniel.

Jinny knocked on Tara's door, she called her when she was on the cab, because she doesn't want to go home and she needed someone.

"Hey are you okay what happened? Tara asked the moment she opened the door.

"I'm such a horrible person Tara."

Tara hugged her and she burst into tears.

"I know you feel the same way about him, cant you just let him? Can't you just let someone love you?" Tara said while they're sitting on the floor leaning on the bedside.

"Look at me Tara, I'm such a mess. I cant even love myself, I don't know what I want and I always feel sorry about myself, — And Daniel . . . .He doesn't deserve someone like me." she said as she wiped her tears from her face

Tara just hugged her from the side