In The Shadows

Chapter 37📱

~Y/N POV~

Homework, homework and more homework.

It's a pain in the ass but needs to be done. I have so much this week but at least in a few months I wont have to anymore since I'll graduate and be out of here. Plus this homework for now distracts me from my reality right now and that's what I need or I over think and it just goes down hill after that with my dark thoughts.

At least I have Jackson but hes not here right now. Something about the boss upstairs needs him for something and Yoongi and the other five demon in particular are busy doing something that leaves me alone for the night. But not all night.

Scribbling down my essay on a history project I'm doing I sighed but also rubbed my eyes to stay awake. I cant have coffee right now so having to slap my face every now and then would have to do for now.

One slap to the face I shook my head awake and blinked several times before continuing my work.

"You shouldn't hit yourself Y/n."

I froze when I heard his voice from behind me. What is he doing back so soon?

I thought he fucked off and abandoned me.

"What do you want Namjoon? I'm busy."

"Can we talk?" Namjoon

I snorted at him and shook my head, scribbling back on my notebook.

"No, like I said I'm busy."

"It wont take long, please Y/n." Namjoon

I ignored the desperation in his voice and just kept writing.

"Look I don't have time for this, my essay is due tomorrow so I don't have time to chat. Now leave me alone."

Listening to him groan through his frustration I felt a little smug but didn't show it even if he couldn't see my face since my back was still turned to him. I don't want to look at him nor do I even want to speak to him. Why should I even give him the chance?

A click of fingers was heard behind me and I flinched back when words started scribbling onto my page by itself. I watched my whole essay get written out in a matter of seconds and my book slammed shut after.

I couldn't believe what just happened.

"Now that its done, can we talk now?" Namjoon

I growled and spun on my chair to face him.

"How, Dare. You."

He remained blank and stared back at me before shrugging.

"What? I thought you could use some help and we need to talk." Namjoon

Pushing my chair back I charged at him just to stop inches from him body.

"Yeah well I don't want YOUR help! I can do perfectly fine on my own and I have done since you left just like that! So go fuck your help and go fuck yourself, you asshole!"

I poked at his hard chest angrily but he didn't move a muscle.

"Why the fuck have you even come here? We don't have anything to talk about and nor do you have the right to come into my room like this and demand we have to talk. Do you really think I will after the pain you caused me by leaving me knowing that I'm pregnant with YOUR child?!"

Punching his chest with my fist he grabbed my wrist and met my gaze with his dark eyes.

"Are you done?" Namjoon

I gapsed at his sudden attitude and ripped my wrist out his grasp and planted a hard slap to the right side of his cheek, the impact forcing his head to turn to the side.

Everything grew eerily quiet and it was like time stopped after that. Namjoon remained standing there with his head turned to the side before blinking and calmly turning back to me clenching his jaw.

"I deserve that." Namjoon

Scoffing at him and walked away to sit on my bed but only to have him follow me but stand directly in front of me.

"Can we please just talk?" Namjoon

"About what?"

I whispered to him and he just sunk down on this knees in front of me, already giving me these soft puppy eyes.

"There's a lot we can talk about. First that I left you the next day without word when we had sex. I didn't plan on leaving it like that and like I've said before I am sorry. Truly." Namjoon

I said nothing but refused to meet his gaze by looking down to my hands on my lap, fiddling with my fingers.

"Then obviously there's the matter that I left when I found out about your pregnancy. I mean before that I kind of knew but just the confirmation of it I guess freaked me out and then my jealousy got the better of me." Namjoon

He sighed heavily. I frowned at him, finally looking back at him at him to see him look off to the side of the room.

"Jealous? Jealous of what?"

Again he met my gaze with a troubled look on his face.

"Of Jimin." Namjoon

"Why?"

"Because he's been introduced to your parents as your boyfriend so I knew when your parents found out about the pregnancy they would assume that the baby was Jimin's and I would have to keep my mouth shut and just watch you all play happy families." Namjoon

Something about that pained look he was giving me right now bad me feel bad for him but also in a way I guess I can understand his jealousy.

"Ah, I see."

"That's why I ran off because I didn't want to see any of that." Namjoon

"You want the baby?"

I asked him surprised but he nods firmly and even so much as smiles lightly at me.

"I do, since I knew about the baby I never thought of anything different I just got a little scared is all. It's a normal reaction even for a demon like me." Namjoon

Not saying anything back to him developed silence in the room, until he took my hands in his large ones taking me by surprise.

"I am truly sorry Y/n. I haven't been the best to you and I will try and make it up to you for the rest of eternity if that is what it takes. I cant bare to think of loosing you." Namjoon

I only stared at him blankly before sighing and removing my hands from his and standing up. Namjoon stood back up also, watching me move around the room to my beside table across the room and open the drawer to take out something.

I walked back over to him and opened his hand to place the piece of paper in his palm.

"You weren't there but this is for you. I have spares so you can do what you want with it."

I stepped back watching him curiously open his palm and look down at the paper which is actually the first ultrasound I had done not so long ago. His eyes lit up and he brought it up to his face as if to get a better look with an wide grin on his face but those small tears brimming his eyes stunned me the most.

"Maybe we can move on from all this Namjoon in time but I think our main focus from now on should be that little one right there. He or she needs the both of us no matter our problems."

He looks up from the picture and wipes his eyes with the back of his hand.

"Are you serious?" Namjoon

I nod at him and made the brave move to move closer and hug him tightly. It only took a matter of seconds for him to hug me back but in the end I ended up smiling.

He hurt me the most out of all of them but I think it's time we move past it now that we're expecting a baby. I have all the boys and my family supporting me but its even better to know that Namjoon does too.