Jackstina(Jackson and Cristina) GREYS ANATOMY fanfic

Part 12

POV Cristina

My head is killing me. I open my eyes to see my roof fan spinning.
I walk out into the living room where I see Callie and Arizona eating breakfast. "Good morning sunshine." Callie says softly
"Yeah good morning"
"Here" Arizona places a plate of pancakes in my hand
"Ahh thank you" I say siting at the breakfast bar.
"Sooo..." Callie says like I know what she's about to say. "Mr. Green eyes brought you home last night."
"He did." I reply sipping my water.
"We'll he carried you in, put you to bed then left. So are you guys a thing?"
"Yeah. No, erm we haven't talked about it yet." I say reluctantly.

I walk into the residents lounge wearing large sunglasses to cover my huge eye bags. Jackson is standing there "hey beautiful"
"Hey" I smile. walking over to him checking to see if there's anyone around. There isn't so I kiss him. I dump my stuff down into my cubby. "Thanks for taking me home last night. Sorry I fell asleep and put an end to our first date."
"No problem. And it was a great night despite your lack of consciousness at the end." I laugh "we'll have plenty of future dates to make up for it."
"How about a date in the on call room later today?"
"Absolutely" he says kissing me on the cheek. He walks out and I get changed.
After a long morning of rounds and a vale replacement I text Jackson to see where he is ready for out date? ;)
After 5 or 10 minutes he reply's sorry I'm going into another surgery with Shepard. OR 3 if you want to watch. I'll text you when I'm done.
I finish the paperwork for the valve replacement and then head to OR 3's gallery. It's empty as it's a standard procedure but I still sit and watch for a while until I get paged by the cardio attending who's service I'm on today. I rush down to the ER and see him doing chest compressions on a kid. He looks at me "we're gonna have to crack her chest. C'mon." I rush over putting on a gown and gloves. Robbins and Karev get there and we all rush her up to surgery. Before scrubbing I send Jackson a quick text going into a surgery now. A cardiac trauma so might be the rest of the day. OR 2. See you after.
After only a couple of hours the patient goes into cardiac arrest and we can't get her back. Me and Alex tell the parents who are devastated. I head back up to Jackson's galley and sit with my head in my hands. This ones really hitting me. I guess I never really work with children. I hear Derek and Jackson close on there patient but I can't will myself to move and go meet him. Luckily Jackson spied me sitting up here came up. He sits next to me and puts his hand on my shoulder. it makes me jump and I sit up, that's when I realise I've been crying. Jackson wipes away my tears "you lost your patient?"
"She was a kid.13. The look on her moms face when we told her." I wipe away a few more tears that are now dripping done my face. "This is why I don't like working with kids. I don't do loss. I can't handle it." He pulls me closer to him and I melt into him.
"I'm so sorry" he kisses me on my head. We sit there for a few minutes before I got paged. I stand up. Jackson wipes the tears from my face then  holds my shoulders. "You can do this. You are Cristina Yang. You can do anything." I kiss him softly.
The rest of the day I was basically a zombi walking around. I really don't know why this one was hitting me so hard. And then It hit me. My best friend was the same age when she died a similar way. After I realised that I couldn't think about anything else. I find the chief and tell him I need the rest of the day off but I don't tell him why. I go home and get in bed watching movies what make me cry. Jackson called me and I realised the time. My shift ended hours ago and I hand told him I left. I answer.
"Hey are you ok?" He says as soon as I pick up.
"Yeah, I just felt ill so I took the rest of the day off."
"I could come over with take out and make you feel better." He says with genuine concern in his voice. I let out a long sob. "On my way."
In no time I'm already curled up into his arms sobbing uncontrollably. He hasn't asked what wrong which I appreciate because it would just make me sob more. I must have cried myself to sleep because the next thing I know my alarm is buzzing and I'm still tightly wrapped in Jackson's arms. He also wakes up to the alarm and reaches over me to shut it off. Kissing me lightly on the cheek. I turn over so we're face to face and hug him for as long as I could. I love this man so much.