Me and Mystery stood outside in the parking lot. Both of us with a bag full of money, it sounded dumb but the parking was full of security. I was heading to my car when mystery stopped me to see if I wanted to make any "after hours mula" meaning I was gonna have to fuck or suck somebody, which I was totally good on. Starting prices was 6,000 , that's alot of money but I was already hindering my spirit with this dancing non sense...I have a boyfriend, and I wasn't cut that way. It was crazy how Jermaine didn't even know it was me...it was even more crazy how I was about to sleep with him In the red room tonight. I hoped in the car and headed straight to McDonald's...I needed a Carmel frapee' asap! I had a ten page paper due in four days..I would do five pages tonight....five on my lunch break , go to class, then go see if the club had something to offer tomorrow night. I was so close to my goal....I wish my baby could come rub me down with oil, give me some head, and cuddle until I fell asleep...Tbh I didn't know where donte was and haven't heard from him all day. Whatever, Hopefully I would be able to stop dancing soon.
Finally home, I hit the shower. I was so tired I literally drunk my coffee in the shower. I could fall asleep at any moment. I could still feel J touching me...it was irritating my soul. Stepped out the shower and put on my towel and headed to my room. I turned on my laptop and heard a knock on the door. It was 3 something in the morning...who could it be...
Des: who is it
Jer: It's me
I opened the door to see a half sober Jermaine , we walked passed me too my room and sat down on the small love seat .
Jermaine: what you been doing all day?
Des: nothing...you (slipping on a full onesie pajama..it was cold as hell in my room)
Jermaine: I went to CS ...with Aubrey and whoever....
Des: oh...how was it? (Sitting on the bed)
Jermaine : good...Fucked in the club (lying) it's crazy... The girl ...she looked so much like you
Des: yeah that's cray... (Typing on her laptop )
Jermaine : *laughing *
Des: what's funny?
Jermaine: why didn't you tell me that you dancing...
Des: *paused* is that any of your business ?
Jermaine:*standing up* I knew that was you...what the fuck got you stripping...you taking niggas in that room like did me??
Des: I'm dancing because I have shit to pay off! Not because I love the shit Jermaine ...rent, bills, student loans and everything esle. i can't make it with just my current job, not in new york..
Jermaine: so you choose fast money? Why didn't you just ask me for it? When you know I got you?
Destiny jumped off her bed stepping in Jermaine's face.
Destiny: *softy* thank you. But I don't need your help... What if we never crossed paths? I'll still be right here...in this apartment..trying to make my dream come into play...YOU HAVE your dream! Your living in it! Let me make my own way...
Jer: that's the dumbest shit i've ever heard...yeah im living in my dream BUT i'm still working everyday to get where I wanna be...I'm not where I wanna be either.. That's a excuse...
Des: what's the excuse? I have to get naked for niggas that think im some hoe? No that's my reality right now...but it won't be like this forever..if your gonna judge me..you can go
Jer: none of this would be this way if you woulda called a nigga when y'all woke up and decided to disappear...
Des: oh Im sorry I was 16 years old and had no say so in my life at all ....I moved because I had too..I didn't call because what would have been the point tooo? Like seriously..you would have been faithful to Me miles away?
Jer:* paused* yea-
Des: Jermaine just fucking lying...like ALWAYS...I heard you were fucking a new bitch days later..gtfo
Jer: you were the first female to break my heart but I was fucking days later...oh okay
Des: woulda, coulda, shoulda...If I could have changed things I would have period but we can't okay *a tear dropped*
They stood in slience , as j wiped the tear from her face...
Jer: Destiny, why did y'all move fa real? Tell me the truth..*Destiny Just stood there* tell me des...
Des: I was pregnant....
Jermaine: * took a step back* what?
Des: I was 6 weeks....Licia's mom heard me and her talking and told my parents...My dad had already declined that Job offer in Michigan but soon as he found...out he took it.... They were so disappointed in me....but they don't believe in abortion...either I had to give the baby up or I kept the baby and they would raise it as there own...both ideas were sick to me...so I went got an abortion on my own...
Jer: damn Destiny, you were never gonna tell me this? *Sadly saying*
Des: no..for what? The damage was done...I had to deal with losing you..then killing a person because I was being young and dumb..I cut all that out my memory...
Jer: wow
Des: I think you should go...
*They walked to the door*
Jer: can you do one thing for me Destiny...please?
Des: what's that Jermaine?
Jer: Can you stop dancing...
Des: I'll think about it...
Jer: Destiny, seriously That club life ain't even you...That shit can fuck you up in the end...
Des: yeah I understand that, but I'm a woman now J....I can take care of myself...I have a brain & I use it very well...good night ..I'll talk to you tomorrow
Jer: don't bother.. * he walked out and she closed the door*
I wanted to tell him to come back so bad. I went to my room and tried my best to start my homework, I.couldn't. I told Jermaine about our baby...He knew I was dancing...it's just too much going on. I know that Jermaine would do anything for me but I had to do this on my own. I guess we aren't talking right now... I missed him as soon as he walked out my door...I turned off the light and laid in the bed.
