Lost Like You- ON HOLD

🤍Chapter 1🤍

TW: Mention of sucide

Adira's pov

It was November 10th my 17th birthday when my father broke the news to me that I was to get married to Caspian Blackstone, Miami's new mafia leader. I was furious with him for the first while but then I realized it wasn't fully up to him and so little by little our relationship has gotten better.

We still aren't as close as before he told me about the arranged marriage but we're getting there and I don't hate him half as much as I did then. After my first love became abusive and later broke my heart I was close to killing myself a bunch of times.

Matilda Agreste, my older sister and best friend. The one who kept me here she's my yellow, the person who saved me and my reason for living. I knew I'd have to move to Miami once I married Caspian and we'd be separated, she made a bunch of sacrifices and even transferred universities just so we'd both at least be in the same city whenever I needed her.

Fast forward to my 19th birthday. The day everything changed and I had to move into the Blackstone mansion to fall in love with Caspian, giving us 6 months before our wedding when we both had to be truely in love with eachother or else the marriage will be very unlikeable.

Moving in day wasn't as bad as it could've been. I got on the private jet with only a carry on and a couple of outfits as everything else was already shipped to Miami weeks before. About three hours later I get off the plane at the airport and am greeted by my future husband Caspian Blackstone.

I already don't like him much. Sure he's hot and knows how to run a mafia but he's also known as Miami's top player and unable to love. I guess we've got that in common at least. It's going to be so hard to get along or even fall in love with this man whore.

I walk up to him to see that he's scrolling on his phone, not paying attention at all until he meets my eyes, gives me a smirk and checks me out. Couldn't he at least be subtle about checking me out. I've been here only about ten minutes and I already want to kill myself.

Well hey I'm going to see Matilda tonight so I guess that's a plus. Now I've just got to get through today then I'll get a refresher with a girls night out at the club with Matilda.

"Hi love" his deep voice pulls me out of my thoughts. "Hey Caspian" I respond tiredly. "Damn no pet name. You're marrying all this and you're still mad. Cheer up bobcat." He tells me giving me yet another pet name that I didn't ask for.

"Bobcat? What is that supposed to mean?" I ask him a little angry as we walk over to his black Porsche suv. "Bobcat because you're sneaky and powerful like a lynx or bobcat but calling you lynx just doesn't have a ring to it so your bobcat" he answers, charm laced into his smooth voice.

"I don't like that nickname though" I say giving him attitude. You guys are at his car so he pins you to it, leaning in really close and whispering in your ear "I didn't say you had to like it bobcat." Then he opens the door for you like that didn't just happen.

Flustered you get in the car and buckle your seatbelt feeling Caspian's hand on your thigh the second your ready and he drives off headed straight toward the mansion.

"When we get to the mansion I'll show you to your room and get a body guard set up with you then I'm going back to my penthouse to relax" he says not taking his eyes off the road. "Ouch you don't want to stay and bond with your future wife especially before she goes out to a club tonight and gets blackout drunk" I say acting sad.

Okay so maybe I was a little sad, not because I actually wanted to hang out with him but only because I need to know more about him so I can know what I'm dealing with and how to show him that even though he's the leader of his mafia I am and always will be the boss and queen.

"Wait what do you mean a club and blackout drunk. Nice try bobcat but that's not gonna happen." He says adding emphasis on bobcat as he knows I don't like the nickname. "Yeah. Matilda and I are going out tonight and since you'll be at your penthouse 'relaxing' it doesn't really matter to you." I tell him slightly aggressive as he thinks he owns me since I'm going to be his wife.

"And why aren't we going to be living together, won't that make it even harder for us to fall in love? If that would even be possible living together" I add in, crossing my legs to get his hand off my thigh.

"Baby, your my fiance and only mine so yeah it does matter to me and I live in my penthouse to be away from my parents as much as possible but since your going to be part of the family" he says pausing to breathe "my parents 'want to get to know they're future daughter in-law' so I guess sucks for you but you have to hang around them. Don't worry though, you'll have my sister Alex to hang out with too" he finishes only looking at me a few times while talking.

"Caspian do I look like I care why you live alone. No I do not so I'll stay with your parents for two weeks. Uno, dos. Dos semanas only, then I will live with you so we can 'bond' together and fall in love before we get married in six months." "CAPEESH?" I tell him off showing that I am the boss and won't let him tell me what to do.

"Ouuu bobcat's fiesty. I don't really care if you live with me. Actually it'll be good for us to do stuff together" he replies with a smirk and bringing his hand back to my thigh to rub soft circles giving me butterflies.

I still hate this man with all my guts but I will admit that he knows how to effortlessly get a girl in the mood as all he had to do was rub my thigh to get me hot and bothered wanting more.

Caspian can clearly tell because he brings his hand closer to your throbbing core as his grin and something else grows larger.

"Love, I don't think you want to start something you can't finish with me" he lowers his voice to a growl.

"Then let's finish this" you tell him now smirking too.

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I did it and got the first chapter down in one night. I'm so excited to write this and I hope you'll be excited to read this.

Ly guys sm! Don't forget to eat, sleep, hydrate and work on your mental health. Have a great day or night<333