Broken Glass//Shawn Mendes (UNDER MAJOR EDITING)

Chapter 18

His lips felt like heaven, but oh lord he was my worst sin.

Shawn Mendes

"I don't care if it hurts. 

I want to have control.

I want a perfect body.

I want a perfect soul.

I want you to notice when I'm not around.

You're so very special.

I wish I was special.

But I'm a creep.

 I'm a weirdo. 

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here." Spencer sang Creep  by Radiohead, but she sang Hayle Reinhart's Vintage Postmodern Jukebox cover. It sounds so beautiful. Especially when Spencer sings it. Her voice is just so alluring, and smooth. She could sing screamo music, and still make it sound like a beautiful  melody. She stopped singing, but continued to play the guitar. 

"You know, It's important to make sure you know someones favorite songs, and favorite type of music. you learn a lot about that person." I interrupted her playing. She smiled. I could see her perfect little dimples. I pick up my guitar from it's case, and a few lyrics I've written. It was now my turn to sing for her.  

"There she goes again. 

Every morning

 is the same. 

You walk on by my house.

I wanna call out your name.

I wanna  tell you how beautiful you are from where I'm standing.

You got me thinking what we could because 

I've been craving, craving, you don't know it but it's true.

Can't get my mouth to say they words they wanna say to you." I sang softly.  It wasn't done, but I'm working on it. Her smile grew. I smiled because she was smiling. 

"It's beautiful." She said. 

"It's about you." I said. It's true. I started writing it when I just had a mere crush on her. I never thought we'd be the way we are. Her smile faded. Did I scare her? On no. I should've never told her. She looked into my eyes. I could tell she saw the confusion in my face. She smirked, and scooted closer to me.  My nerves eased a little bit. It didn't scare her. 

She got closer and closer. Her lips were so close to mine. I could feel her warm breath on my face. It feels like she's teasing me. I couldn't take it anymore. I hungrily push our lips together. Her perfect pink lips danced on mine. Oh God, those lips. 

She pushed me on her bed so I was laying down. She slowly crawled on top of me. I might have to rip her clothes off if she keeps doing this to me. She leaned down so our lips were touching again. She wanted me just as bad as I wanted her, I could tell. Her body language says it all. Her hips were moving perfectly over my body. I know Spencer is only teasing me, so I decided I'd tease her back. I wrapped my arms around her back, and sat up, deepening the kiss.

She didn't stop with those hips. Her hands were roaming my whole upper body at that point. I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted her so bad, but I knew she wasn't ready for anything like that. 

"Okay, we need to stop." I said, breaking the kiss. 

"Why?" She pouted. 

"Because you've gotten me really turned on, and I know you don't want to go there." I said. She smiled, and looked down at my pants. Oh god why would she look?