My One and Only

Searching pt. II

~Bakura's P.O.V.~

I can't believe this. I...I thought I....never mind. I guess what I felt for Ryou wasn't true. I guess I was blinded by my foolishness. I knew I shouldn't have gotten attached. Ever since...*sigh*

~Flashback~

"Oh my gosh what do we have here?" I bend over and pick up the tiny 5 year old that bumped into me.

"No Baku! Not the thingy!" He squealed.

"Hmm...maybe I'm not thinking about the thingy...maybe I'm thinking about THIS!"

I put the little boy on the bed and began to tickle him all over. His childish squeals and giggles brought a smile to my face.

"Wait Baku!!" He shouted.

"What is it RyRy?(pronounced "ree ree")" I stopped tickling him and waited to hear what he had to say.

"Daddy said he was going away tonight, I just said goodbye to him and now I don't feel good." The little boy sat up and looked down.

"Oh? well your father is a busy man RyRy, he goes digging in other countries you know?" I tried to make him feel better about his father always abandoning him for his work in Egypt. "He brought me to you too." I smiled.

"I know...but I don't like when he leaves. I'm afraid."

"Afraid of what RyRy?" I move one of his pearly white bangs out of his face.

"I'm afraid he won't come back and I'll be all by myself. I don't like to be alone Baku." The little boy shed a tear. I wiped it away from his face and I sat him on my lap.

"Well, you will never ever be alone RyRy, I'm always going to be here with you."

"Linky promise?" The boy turned his head and looked at me with big chocolatey brown eyes.

"Wh-what's a linky promise?" I ask him curiously.

"It's a promise you make with your linky finger!" He held out his little pinky finger.

"Oh you mean a pi-," I saved myself, "of course, a linky promise," I laugh and wrap my pinky around his.

"Now it's forever Baku!" the little boy jumped out of my lap and I continued to chase him throughout the empty house.

~End of Flashback~

I sighed. Those were much simpler times. Times when Ryou didn't even know what a pinky finger was. Times when he didn't have anyone else in his life.

Maybe I was overreacting..maybe I need to just lay off of him for a little...

No. I shouldn't. I love him. I want to be with him forever. I don't want anyone changing that, but it seems....things have already changed.

You promised Kura

I heard Ryou say through our mind link. I ignored him. I don't have anything to say to him right now. All I want to do is get as far away as possible. Him and Cecile will probably just wait it out.

Where should I go though...maybe I didn't think this through enough...

I'm feeling less of myself

Oh. No.

A tear fell from my eye as I felt pain through Ryou's words. I couldn't bear hearing them. He doesn't deserve that...and I did this to him.

I need to get away from him. I can't damage him anymore, I can't hold him back...he needs his space from me.

"I love you Ryou," I whispered to myself. I watched as my breath showed in the cold air. I grabbed the air and closed my fist. I continued to hastily walk and then I let go.
I thought,

Linky promise....