Bubble Gum | Tododeku

Give It Back

The silver paper of today's wrapper span in my finger tips, helping me get lost in thought.

"We're all only human. Don't beat yourself up over it, okay?"

Maybe he's right... but it's all so foreign to me. Never in my life have I worried over someone else, I haven't had anyone to worry over though. The pit in my stomach continues to grow as I become more scared. What could this be?

As much I want to, and probably already, know the answer, I feel like learning the truth of these emotions could do more harm then good. So, as much as I hate to, it's best to keep them hidden as of now.

Laying in my bed, I stare up at the brown tiled ceiling. "Why did it have to be like this?" I ask myself, "Why couldn't he just be a friend..." I caught myself wanting to learn more about the greenette, to the point where I started seeing him everywhere, including where I would see him be hurt in the conscience of my own mind. I wanted it to stop, to just go away but they won't. They keep coming back and causing a mess when they do.

Light from the setting sun peered through my window, the dorm room stayed silent. Nothing, yet almost everything at the same time. I stared out of the glass and just watched, I just watched the sky change it's colours and create a beautiful picture. My relaxed state allowed my eyes to start drifting off to sleep...

I had woken up without knowing the time, all I knew was that someone was knocking at my door. I slowly made my way to the door and saw him again. Midoriya smiled at me from the other side of the doorway. "Hey Todoroki~Kun! I just wanted to come check up on you if that's alright!"

I nodded, "Of course. Yeah, I'm alright, I started thinking about what you said about just being human and stuff... Thanks for that, by the way." Midoriya grew a small shade of pink, most likely due to his embarrassment.

"Ah! You don't- have to- you don't have to thank me I just gave you some advice my m-mom did and I thought it might help you out because it was helpful to me and-"

He looked back up at me, I didn't realize it, but I was smiling, in awe of the person standing in front of me.

"SORRY! I- I'LL HEAD OUT NOW! GLA-GLAD TO SEE YOU'RE ALRIGHT!" He started walking away from the door, when I did something I would most likely regret later;

"Wait!" I grabbed onto his wrist, gently so I didn't hurt him. Looking back on it, the moment was a total cliché, like it came out of a movie Mina would watch.

"Yeah?"

There was a long pause, I just- I didn't want to let go... he meant too much and I was going through too much, so I disgarded my impulse control completely.

"Can we run?" I asked, and slowly but surely, Midoriya understood the weight of my question. I need to escape, even if just for a little while, like that night at the Midoriyas when him and I ran.

"Yeah.. let me go get my coat." He smiled, and I let go. I watched as he ran to the elevator. and I was left to my thoughts.

I was also left to look back on my actions and realize how much of an idiot I was.

When I walked back into my room, I stopped and looked at myself in the mirror. My face was beet red and a little bit of smoke came from my left side. I was blushing like crazy, I had to ignore it in hopes it would go away. Why did he have to make me like this? I thought, but shook my head and grabbed my coat.

Slipping on my shoes, I thought about where we could go, we were at UA now and I wasn't that familiar with the area. We could just walk around Heights Alliance for a bit, the scenery is nice and calming I guess. As I closed the door, still lost in thought, I saw Midoriya at the end of the hall. "Hey! Ready to go?" I nodded, following him downstairs and out the door.

The sky had grown a dark shade of blue and the wind blew around. I learned to stick by Midoriya's right side in the cold, and subtly heat my left to keep him warm. We both were silent, not muttering a word. What should I say to him? I can't-"

"Something on your mind?" he asked, and I shrugged. "I'm not sure.. maybe..."

"Well could you tell me about it? Or is it personal?"

"I'm not sure if I can really put it into words.." I lied.

"Oh, well okay then. If you find out how, let me know if I can help!"

I smiled at his generosity, "Thank you Midoriya." and the silence returned, but only for a second as an idea popped into my head. "Come with me, I have a place we can go." I looked back, seeing how far we were from the 1-A dorm entrance. "The opening should actually be around here."

There was a small log placed up against the walkway fence, I had placed it there a little while ago to mark the spot. I climbed over, and reached out my hand to grab his. Now, the both of us were walking through the woods, hand in hand. "It should be around here- oh, there it is."

A large rock was in the center of the trees, it had eroded into a seat-like shape, and was the one part of the forest that wasn't covering the sky with leaves.

"Woah, how did you find this?" Midoriya asked. "A little while back, I had went on a walk in the woods after school in attempts to get some quiet. I found this here and thought it might be a good stargazing spot."

The greenette stood with a look of surprise on his face. "It's... oddly perfect."

"Well, I thought maybe since I saw the spot you use to calm down, it's only right I entrust you with mine."

He walked over and sat down, filling half of the seat. I followed and we soon sat looking at the stars. It reminded me all of that night, the night that started this whole thing, how I burdened him with all of my problems. How he could now be involved with any danger that happened to me, but it looked like he didn't care. He looked happy, happy to help like that day at the sports festival and I-.

My eyes widened, "I can't let him worry like that."

"Worry about what?" I turned and realized I had spoke out loud. "I- uh..."

If you cut him off, he won't have to suffer.

"I..."

"I can't... hangout with you anymore Midoriya."

I AM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO DO AND IT IS MOST LIKELY SHIT I- AHHH OML. OK HI, SO I WAS THINKING OF THIS HAVING 11 OR 12 CHAPTERS MOST LIKELY 12. I AM SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO DO I HAD A LOT GOING ON AND I JUST- I RLLY NEEDED A BIT. IM SAD TO SEE THIS STORY GO, BUT AM ALSO STARTING UP NEW PROJECTS ON THE SITE THAT WILL BE AVAILABLE BY THE TIME THIS STORY IS COMPLETE. I LOVE YOU ALL, STAY HYDRATED.

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