where are you? | choi san

chapter 1 ✧

y/n's pov

i woke up sweating due to the dream i just had.
i looked at the time and it was only 5:34 AM.
i sighed and went downstairs to take my medication.
looking in my medicine cabinet, i searched for my schizophrenia medication.
"ah, found it." i reached for the small container in the far right.
i've always kept these pills hidden because i hated being reminded that i was schizophrenic.
i grabbed a water bottle and swallowed the pill with water.

after i got ready for work, i texted my friend, yeosang, to pick me up. obviously, i don't drive because i'll never know when i'll start hallucinating again.
a few minutes later, i see his car pull up in my driveway.
i grab my bag and walked to his car.
i got inside and was greeted to a smiling yeosang.
"good morning." i smiled at him.
honestly, i could be outside talking to myself and this could just be another hallucination.
i don't think so though, i can usually tell if it's a hallucination or real.
yeosang started driving to our workplace.
we worked in this café that was always busy.
it was my part time job this summer to pay for college fees.
it was a yellow light and yeosang sped up to pass it. when getting closer, a little girl appeared.
i closed my eyes, flinching.
i wasn't really used to those kind of hallucinations yet.
last time that happened, i hit yeosang, almost crashing the car.
"you good?" yeosang noticed me flinching, and looked at me.
"yeah." i sighed.

we arrived at the café and already saw some people inside.
walking inside, we saw our manager working.
"good morning guys!" our manager greeted us.
"good morning." we bowed our heads.
"alright i'm gonna go now, you guys got this right?" our manager gathered his things.
"yep!" yeosang replied.
"see you guys later!" he exited the café

today was another normal day.
it was busy and tiring.
while washing some cups and plates, i felt a stinging feeling on my arm.
i looked down and blood was running out my wrists.
shocked, i dropped a cup on the floor and it shattered.
"y/n!!" yeosang ran over to me.
"what's wrong?!" he grabbed my wrist.
"it's bleeding don't touch it!" i shouted at him.
"i-it's not bleeding." he looked at my wrist.
i realized that it was just another hallucination.
i calmed down and started cleaning up fragments of the shattered cup.
"no, let me do it. go rest." yeosang helped me pick up the pieces.
still hallucinating, i grabbed a pill from my bag and swallowed it.
slowly, the blood disappeared and i washed my hands to get rid of the dish soap remaining.