where are you? | choi san

chapter 4 ✧

y/n's pov

it has been a few days after the forest hangout.
nothing has been interesting.
i've been intentionally ignoring my schizophrenia medication just to talk to san.
san's presence makes me feel genuinely happy.
even though he's not actually real...

i get ready for work and wait for yeosang to pick me up.
san hasn't showed up all morning.
i usually see him right when i wake up.
since i didn't see him that whole morning, i took my medication.
i feel so bad when taking the pills, it's like i just murdered someone.
i see yeosang pull up in my driveway and so i exit my house.
"yeosang!!" i run up to him.
"you seem happy today." he hugs me.
"you're my serotonin." i tell him.
"you are too." he pats my head.
we pull out of the hug and get into his car.

we arrive at work and open up the café.
a few minutes after we opened up the café, a customer already came in.
"hello! what can i get for you toda-" i paused when i looked at the customer's face.
he looked like san.
must be a hallucination.
"can i have a large iced americano?" he ordered.
"of course!" i put in his order on the screen.
"the total is $3.78." i tell him.
he inserted his debit card in the machine and waited for the payment to be processed.
the machine made a dinging noise, signaling for the card to be pulled out.
"here's your iced americano." i handed his order that yeosang has already made.
"thank you." he grabbed and exited the café.
i deeply sighed because i just survived the hallucination.
"y/n!" i hear a voice whisper.
i look in the direction of the whisper and see san.
he signals me to follow him into the staff room.
i follow him in there and close the door.
"san!" i say and hug him.
"missed me?" he chuckled.
"where were you this morning?" i asked.
"i was preparing our next hangout!" he answers.
i nodded.
"oh, you should go! i can see a customer coming in." he says then disappears.
i sigh and take my schizophrenia medication.

san's pov

heart, stop beating so fast whenever you're around her!
"are you in looove?" my friend, jongho asks me.
"i-i'm not." i responded.
"your face is as red as a tomato haha!" jongho pointed at san's flushed face.
san quickly ran to his room.

if you're wondering where we are, this is the imagination world.
everyone's hallucinations and imaginations live here.
i'm one of them.
i hate it here though.
i don't get treated nicely.
i'm always yelled at.
my boss sent me to disturb y/n and ruin her life.
i obviously can't do that!
plus, she doesn't deserve that.
once my boss found out i've been actually developing a friendship with y/n, he flipped out.

my phone started ringing.
it was my boss calling me.
i sighed, getting ready to get yelled at.
i picked up the phone and my boss started speaking.
"hey san. i'm sorry for holding a grudge on you just because you became friends with y/n. i actually don't mind if you do that. i'm gonna end our contract here though. live well san." my boss confessed then hung up.
i was speechless.
i put my phone down and started crying.
i tried going back to y/n's world, but i realized she already took her medication.
please wear off already, medicine.