Consequences

Chapter 9: Revenge

XANDER'S POV:

"Now, if we're done with this UNIMPORTANT CONVERSATION, I'm leaving!" I crossed my arms and looked at them with a pissed off expression and walked out. I heard mom crying and talking to dad about me and my revenge as I walked towards my room. I stood in front of the huge glass window and was staring the night city. I was still aggravated at my parents. They really need to stop pressurizing me for marriage and to move on from the past!

According to my parents, I'm sacrificing my life for my revenge. They think I'm suffering since the last nine years and I'm trying to hide behind this cold and emotionless attitude of mine. My mom feels hurt because she's seeing her son's life getting consumed by darkness and brutality of the criminal world. According to her, she's seeing me suffer in each and every day of his life and even after being my mother, she can't ease my pain. But she's wrong. I'm not living in darkness, darkness is living in me. I know I've into a brutal monster and I'VE NO FUCKING REGRETS. I'm not only doing this because of my revenge. I'm doing this to keep the underworld under my feet and be the Godfather of the criminal world. I want people to fear me and no, my life isn't consumed by brutality. I never suffer. I make people suffer in the deadliest way possible. I, myself chose to be cruel and brutal because THIS IS THE LIFE I'VE HAVE CHOSEN! Good people have never survived the battle. People say karma is a bitch and whatever you do will come back to you but why leave everything on karma when you yourself can fix it?

We humans are monstrous than any other monster but we just tend to fool the heaven's gate by faking innocence and doing good deeds. No one is innocent. Everyone has their own demons. Everyone has their own dark and negative side. Everyone is a monster since birth but you're an angel as long as you can hide and lie to your true self. However, once you choose to suppress your positive side and let negative side outshine without any regrets, you become a monster for people. I, Xander Stefani, am a proud monster!

I still remember that incident clearly.

Nice years ago...

I was beaten up by Jax and David, Desmond's brother and tied up with ropes. I was completely bruised and could barely open my eyes because of the drugs that they injected, forcefully. I was drowsy as fuck! I couldn't move... I was immobilized. All I could do was watch HER let out howl of anguish and bellow in agony. She was wailing as Jax slowly tortured her while Desmond's men raped her for two hours continuously! I begged them to stop. I cried. But, they didn't stop. I remember Desmond saying, "You're like a piece of glass, Xander Stefani. You're easily breakable!"

They were laughing while she begged them to kill her. The pain was getting unbearable fo her! She was just... sixteen. But, they continued to hurt her. Her screams echoed in the room and it still echoes in my ears. The floor was covered with her blood. That was the moment I realized that it was our last moment together.

"I will probably die today, Xan..." She said when tears rolled down my cheeks, "But promise me, that you'll not shed a tear! Instead you'll make them feel the same pain and sufferings that I went through... I love you so much, Xan... I always will."

"I love you more, angel... Don't leave me like this..." My heart was shattered into a trillion pieces when she said that because it was her last sentence. She held the necklace she bought for me, tightly. She wanted me to wear it whenever I'd remember her because she was about to go abroad for studies.

"He will avenge your pain?" Desmond said while laughing. "He can't even fight properly and you think he'll take revenge, huh?"

Yes, I didn't know how to fight properly at that time. I was weak.