Flaming Hearts ~From The Ashes I Rise ~Book3 {OLDER VERSION}

CH30 - Conflicted

My eyes eventually found their strength to open up. I felt all groggy and tired, but then instant feeling of regret came after those things, mainly because the sun almost blinded me-.

I froze in shock.

Sun?

How long had I been out here?

I whipped my head around weakly before commanding my body to get up. However, as I was moving every inch of my muscles, they were aching.

For some reason I felt so tired and weaker. . . and not only that. . . there was this. . . void that was inside my chest. . . I nursed the side of my face as one of my open eyes scanned the surroundings around me.

I was still in the forest. . . then I remembered what happened the other night. . .

Miyuki. . . I fought her. . . and she. . .

My confusion was soon pushed aside by rage and my vision turned red for that moment as the weight of that event finally sank into my mind, deeply like lava. I can literally feel that also running in my veins the more I think about what that girl just had done.

That stupid Woman! She went through this extra measure to used blood bending on me, stopping me to save her skin from that suicide mission of hers! I did everything for her! We made a promise that we would go through the third step and be together! And this is how she repays the effort I had put in this so-called relationship?! Is this how much I mean to her?!?

Nothing?!

How could she do this to me?! My own soulmate?!

HOW DARE SHE BETRAY ME LIKE THIS, IN THE MOST HUMILIATING WAY POSSIBLE?!

'Tsk.' I scoffed to myself mentally to myself as I finally got back onto my feet and dust the embarrassment off of me. 'That girl always had a death wish from the start, yet I still gave a chance to her. . . to us. . .

I should have known from the beginning this will end up in a disaster. I should have kept things to myself and rejected that glimpse of hope that it would be different for me.

Was I honestly this foolish to think that she could have lifted up my curse?

I guess I am, or at least was.

I shut my eyes tight and began to walk towards my sword that had been stabbed in the grass. 

'She had tricked me with excellence.' I thought to myself angrily, that feeling making my feet stomp onto the ground. 'She probably did all that to get with me and use me like some kind of toy, just like those other selfish humans.' I thought to myself, but when these thoughts were made my mind up, I knew it was only my rage that is trying to tell me, convince me that things will get better once this is all over and I am back to my home realm. But deep within my gut, it also hurts for some reason.

It didn't help me much when I think about the fight, we had last night. The pain in her eyes, the sorrowful thoughts of hers, and then the terrified look when she used that technique on me. . . like she genuinely regretted her actions. . .