Something Great (Niall Horan)

Chapter 30 - Actual Physical Pain

Chapter 30 - Actual Physical Pain

§•Niall's POV•§

"You still have to accept what you did." Ashton says. I'm good. A thought comes to my mind.

"Did you ever accept with what you did?" I ask him. He freezes.

"Ok, let me rephrase, you have to learn to live with what you did." Ashton says. So he didn't accept what he did. I knew it.

"Is there any way I can hide it from the others?" I ask. Ash nods.

"You cut pretty close together, so you can hide it with bracelets or something.

"I can't just start wearing bracelets, they'd know I'm hiding something." I say. Ashton nods.

"You could ask Ashley too, I'm sure she knows something." Ashton says.

"Ya can't do anything until the scabs are gone, not really anyway." Ashley walks in. When even?

"Go steal some of Harry's bracelets then, I know Liam got some with messages on them." I say. Ashley nods, and walks off to get them. I'm not wearing bandages forever. I'll keep them on for now though. They still itch though. Jeez.

"Stop itching them." Ashton smacks my arms away. I groan. Fine, I won't scratch them. I hold my arm up to my mouth and start biting it. It works just as good. Ashton face palms.

"Niall, what are you doing?" Ashley asks, walking in with, like, 20 bracelets.

"He told me not to itch them." I say, nibbling on my arm. Ashley grins.

"I think that counts as itching." Ashley says.

"No, it's nibbling, like a mouse." I say.

"Don't nibble either." Ashton says. I groan.

"Here. Harry asked why though." Ashley says, handing me the bracelets.

"What'd ya say?" I ask.

"That I thought you needed some inspiration, he agreed." Ashley smirks. My face reddens.

"Put em on." Ashton says. I roll my eyes, but put on the bracelets. Wow, they should cover all the cuts. It's amazing.

"How long do you think?" I ask Ashton. He looks confused for a moment, but then understands.

"You should be fine by the time they have us start playing shows." Ashton nods.

"Should be, it's mostly up to you and how everything between you and Kristin proceeds." Ashley adds.

"And Harry?" I ask. They shrug.

"He'll get to a point where he won't seem to get any better, and then it's up to Tori." Ashton says. How do they know all this?

"But first things first, you need to live with your scars, both emotional and physical, and show Harry your arms." Ashley says. I nod. Wait, what?! Show Harry my arms? Is she mental?! I don't think I can show Harry my arms. Like, I just can't.

"She's right Niall." Ashton says. I bite my lip. I can't show Harry, I know I'd burst into tears.

"No one said you had to do it today." Ashley says. But I don't want to do it at all! I groan.

"There was less possible pain before I came to my realization." I huff. Ashton grins.

"In order to heal you have to endure more pain." Ashley says.

"Ok, what are you two on?" I ask them, completely serious.

"Experience." They both say. Have I told you that I like being alone? I love it. Right now, I really want to be alone and heal in silence. Actually, I think I just want to sleep. I didn't get much last night...