Something Great (Niall Horan)

Chappie 20 - Be Grateful

Wow chappie 20. I never thought I'd make it this far!!

Chappie 20 - Be Grateful

§•Niall's POV•§

After a few moments, Kristin runs in, and embraces me in a tight hug. I wrap my arms back around her. A few tears streak down my face, as my memories of that day come rushing back.

"I didn't want to punch the wall." I say to her.

"But you thought that was the only option." She says.

"Yeah." I say. She pulls out of the hug, and wipes the stray tears off my face.

"You could've talked to Harry about it." Kristin says.

"He didn't want to hear me talk about it." I say. Harry pops his head in, glaring at me.

"That is the biggest lie I've ever heard you say." Harry says. I mentally groan. He leaves, grinning triumphantly.

"What's the real reason?" Kristin asks me.

"I wouldn't be able to talk about it." I say, avoiding her eyes. She hugs me again, even tighter than last time. I'm not telling her everything. She deserves to know everything though.
"I punched the wall cause I was mad that it was my fault you were in coma." I say, pulling out of the hug.

"It wasn't your fault." She reminds me.

"That's exactly what Harry said." I say.

"He was right. It. Is. Not. Your. Fault." Kristin says, looking me in the eye. It was though. No one will change my mind. Not even Kristin.
"Niall." Kristin says, shaking me slightly.

"Huh? Oh." I say, looking at her.

"What else happened?" She asks me.

"You'd get more answers if you asked Harry." I say, sitting down on the bed.

"Does that mean you aren't going to answer me?" She asks, with her hands placed on her hips.

"Just ask Harry." I say, laying on my back. She groans, and walks out of the room. I really don't want to discuss what happened when she wasn't here. It hurts to much. Tears stream down my face as I remember those ten days of hell. I lean against the headboard and rub at my eyes.

"Niall, I'm sorry. Don't cry." Kristin says, sitting on the bed next to me. She gives me a sideways sorta hug.

"I-I'm not crying." I say my voice cracking. She rubs my back as more tears fall down my face. I shrug her off, and wipe the tears off my face.
"I'm fine." I say.

"No your-"

"I'm fine." I snap at her. She goes silent, and looks down at her hands. Why'd I snap at her? I don't even know why I'm mad. I just am. So, anybody who ever said I was almost back to normal, lied. Cause I am nowhere near back to normal. In fact, I think I'm farther away now. Kristin isn't the type to stay silent when someone snaps at her. She would normally say something back. I should apologise, but I don't know why I snapped in the first place. And that's what she'll ask first.

"Niall?" She asks quietly. I look at her, my thoughts subsiding for the moment.
"A-are you mad at me?" She asks looking up. Am I mad at her? No. I don't know. I mean why would I be mad at her? She didn't do anything.

"I don't know." I mumble, starring at my hands. She gets up and walks out silently. She's a mind reader. She knew I wanted to be alone. I bury my face into my knees, as the tears stream down my face. I'm so confused right now. I don't know why I snapped at Kristin. I don't know why I'm mad at her. I don't know why I'm crying. I don't know shit. My final conclusion is that I'm just a mess at the moment.