This One's For You (Of Mice & Men Fanfiction)

Chapter 7

Delilah's P.O.V

"What's he doing!?" Austin asked Kellin in a panic. Vic was apparently having a fit, like a panic attack or something. I didn't know what Kellin expected us to do to help, but both Austin and I were going to try and calm him down. "He's just freaking out, you know. It's happened before but not this close to stage time. He keeps mumbling about shame and 'I wish I'd never told her.'. Nobody knows what he's talking about, but we're all really worried. Especially Mike." Kellin huffed. I heard faint banging and yelling as we approached Pierce The Veil's tour bus, and when I walked on I noticed that the jacket Vic was wearing earlier was sprawled out on the floor. I heard sobbing from the bathroom and when I looked up I saw that the three other guys from Pierce The Veil were all banging on the door and yelling at Vic to come out. "Fuck off!" Vic screamed from inside, and they all managed to stop and walk away from the bathroom. Vic was silent for a few moments before everyone started hearing muffled sobs again. Austin quickly told me who was who before we all sat down on the couches and discussed the situation.
"What the fuck are we gonna do?" Jaime groaned, head in his hands. Nobody bothered to answer because they all knew there was just about nothing they could do. Kellin tried to think of ways to calm him down, but everyone had tried and failed in the past, it was almost hopeless. "We'll have to cancel the set.." Tony murmured. I noticed that throughout the whole conversation Mike hadn't said one word, but I didn't force anything out of him. "Hey Delilah, weren't you talking to him before?" Austin asked me, and everyones eyes glanced at me in anticipation. "Yeah..." I mumbled. I didn't say anything else until Jaime motioned for more information. "I honestly don't think I can tell you what he s-" I was cut off by Mike standing up and storming out of the bus, slamming the door behind him. We saw him through the window, practically tearing the hair out of his head and pacing back and forth. "Just ignore it, he'll cool off.." Tony told me, and we sat in silence for a few more minutes. "Okay guys, we have half an hour until we have to be backstage, is there seriously nothing we can do to help Vic?" Jaime asked, standing up. Everyone shook their heads, except Austin. "If you know what he's talking about, don't you think it'd be easier to calm him down? I mean, if he ends up coming out of the bathroom?" Austin asked me, and without further hesitation, I got up and tip-toed over to the bathroom door, which of course was locked. I knocked slightly before Vic banged the door back at me. "Leave. Me. Alone!" Vic sobbed. "Vic, it's Delilah. You don't have to be ashamed of anything, I promise." I said just loud enough for him to hear. "I never should've told you!" He screamed back at me, and banged on the door once more. "You needed someone and I was there, you told me because I'm just like you, Vic. At least let me in so we can talk." I said. I looked back at the others who were astonished to see the door open slightly and Vic slowly shuffle out. He was only half out of the bathroom, but I saw he was more relaxed than he sounded, although his eyes were puffy from crying. "Can I please have my jacket?" He called out to Kellin, who was closest to it. He threw it over and Vic caught it, but I saw Austin's eyes sadden almost instantly. Oh no, did he see Vic's arm? I think he noticed the look in Austin's face as well, because almost instantly he shrinked back into the bathroom and tried to close the door. I caught it just in time, and he glared at me, slipping on his jacket. There were fresh cuts on his arm, I could see that much, and the blood was almost dripping out of his sleeves. I went to hug him, but he fell to the ground and hugged his knees. "I shouldn't have told you, I shouldn't have told you, I shouldn't have told you." He repeated over and over again before I put my hand over his mouth. "It's done, Vic. You can't change the past. The fact is, I know, and I'm not telling anybody. There's no shame in it." I whispered to him so that nobody else could hear. He nodded his head and I moved my hand away from his mouth. I helped him up from the floor and led him out of the bathroom, only to run into Austin, who looked extremely worried. "We'll be talking about this later, Jesus Christ." He exclaimed before taking my hand and practically dragging me out of the bus. Mike had gotten back on because he saw that Vic had submerged from the bathroom.

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Austin, Alan and I were on the Of Mice & Men tour bus after Pierce The Veil had played. Vic seemed like his normal self on stage, and didn't act like he'd just had a mental breakdown at all. It was weird, but we were happy that he could at least pretend.
It was only three days since we departed for Warped Tour, but my teachers had already sent me a bunch of homework, since they didn't know where I really was. I was trying to do the work, but I never paid much attention in school, so I didn't know how to figure out most of the answers. "Six divided by the power of four.." I thought out loud, and Austin opened my bunk curtain and peeked his head in. "Watcha doin'?" He asked with a smile on his face. I was too confused to pay any attention to him so all I said was "Homework.". He crawled in my bunk with a cup of tea in his hand, sipping silently as he read the work that was on my laptop screen, until he pointed at one of the problems with his free hand. "That's 42." He said, and I turned to him with a confused look on my face. "How do you know!?" I questioned, and he shrugged. "Everything is 42." He managed to say without grinning, and he managed to hide a smirk that was forming. I rolled my eyes and laughed at him before focusing on my work again. I'd done it all before, but lately I was too caught up in my suicide, and Austin to be able to remember it. Again, I never paid attention in class, but I always caught on a few things. Austin put his arm around my shoulder and pointed to problems on the screen while still sipping his tea. "If you divide six by the power of four, you can multiply by eight and that's the answer you get." He said quietly, pointing to all the numbers on the screen. "Since when were you good at maths?" I asked him. "You've only known me for a week or so, don't think you know everything about me yet!" He said with a grin, and I was about to talk until I was cut off by Alan. "Austin? Are these yours legs on the floor?" He said, waiting for a reply. "Stop kicking my legs!" Austin giggled, and crossed his legs so that they weren't lying on the floor of the bus.

Austin continued to help with my homework, and when it came to my Engish homework, he was more into it than ever. He'd gotten up and made about four cups of tea so far, and I was scared he would end up pissing in my bed. What I had to do for English was write a story about what I was doing while I was away. That was obviously a hard thing to do, since I'd told all the teachers that I was going to my Aunty's funeral, not on Warped Tour. I thought I may as well make something up, but Austin tried to change my mind. "You have to write about this experience! I want to know how your outlook on life has changed after this!" He said with a huge grin on his face. "Honestly, Austin. I don't know if I'm going to remember all of the good memories when I get home to my dad." I whispered. His face saddened, and he looked sad, but he still tried to say happy things. "You will! I'll be living right upstairs as well, and I'm always just a phone call away if you need me! Just remember how happy Me, Tino, Alan, Phil, and all the others will have made you feel by the end of this tour. I promise you'll think of everything in a completely different way!" He said, his face changing every few seconds from happy to sad. I didn't know what to expect out of the rest of the tour, but I knew that out of everything to do and everyone to meet, it'd only just started. I closed my laptop and put it back in the bag, covering my face with my hands. I always did that when I got stressed, which was usually after doing a lot of school work, even though that wasn't very often.
Austin sighed, and tightened his grip around my shoulder. "Look, Delilah. I know that you don't have high hopes for whatever's going to happen while on Warped Tour, but I can assure you that it is one of the most amazing experiences that you will ever know, and you will meet a lot of people just like you. Wait for the signing this afternoon, I swear lots of people will tell me or Alan about how they've kept strong because of music, or because they wanted to experience Warped Tour one more time. I don't want you to feel like just another person that deserves nothing more than what they get, because you do deserve more. You deserve a lot more, and I'm working on making sure that you get a lot more. I want you to be happy, more than anything. You're beautiful and seeing you the way you are just breaks my heart, even though I hardly know you. Will you promise me that you'll try as hard as you can to enjoy everything, even the parts that aren't so enjoyable?"
"I promise."