vogue ✧ l.hemmings

Twenty-five || Condoms?

Angelina Woods.

"Luke. . . you know. . . we haven't. . . been using. . . condoms?" I asked threw kisses while Luke and I laid in bed, which was once cuddling became making out. Lately, when we've been having sex, we haven't been really. . . safe.

He stopped in the middle of out session, holding onto my waist, biting his lip. "Yeah, I know. I've been lazy to buy some or I keep forgetting. You haven't like, missed a period, right?"

I shook my head. "No, but it should be coming up soon. Luke, what if I get. . . pregnant?" The thought scared the crap out of me. Luke wouldn't want a baby, I don't even know if I can take care of one. I'm not even married.

"Let's not worry about now. If something happens that isn't right, let me know right away, okay?" He held my face in his hands, placing a gentle kiss on my mouth. I nodded softly, giving a kiss in return before we laid back on the bed. I crawled on top of him, barring my face in his chest. Pregnancy was just running threw my head like a wild fire. I was seriously scared for myself.

"I know your thinking about it." Luke sighed, running his fingers threw my hair. I looked up at him and frowned.

"I'm sorry. I'm just so scared about what will happen. Will you leave me if I'm pregnant?" I asked softly, my heart raced as I asked the question and felt sick inside.

Luke sat up, sitting me up as well on his lap and held on to my waist. "No I would't leave you, baby. I won't even if your pregnant, I promise."

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"Calum, get me some water, please?" Tiana asked. I decided to surprise Tiana at Vogue to hang out with her at lunch. Since I wanted to talk about things.

Calum got up immanently to get water for her making me laugh because I found it amusingly funny.

"So what's up?" Tiana asked as she stabbed her fork at her salad.

"Well, uh, you see. . ." I bit down on my bottom lip. "Ever since Luke and I got back together, again, and we're like, active, I like barely noticed we haven't been to. . ." My voice trailed off, Thinking of a word to say.

"Been to what?"

"Careful." I finally finished. "And we've already done it a few times and then after we talked about I started to think about all that could happen. I could be preg-" I was cut off by Calum coming back to join us, sitting next to her and giving her a water bottle.

"We'll talk later." She mouthed and I simply nodded. I was kinda glad Calum came back because I felt like if I were to keep going, I would start crying and I didn't want to cry in front of Tiana and then Calum in the middle of a food court.

When their lunch break's ended, I went with Tiana and Calum left to the top floor. "Back to what you where saying. How could you guys not be careful! You both know how a baby is created!" Tiana groaned. "Trust me, if you are, you will have a lots or morning sickness."

I nodded softly, barring my face in my hands. "Me getting pregnant right now is so not good. I mean, I'm a model for American Apparel! Do you think they'll be wanting their front cover girl to be pregnant?! Oh my God, I'm gonna get fired. Tiana they have a good pay and they're so nice. I don't if I'll get a job till like. . . I can't!" I didn't notice I was rambling till Tiana looked at me kinda as if I was crazy.

"Okay, Anne, breathe. You don't even know if you are yet. Have you had your. . . monthly thing yet or you haven't?" Tiana asked slowly, holding me down by my shoulders so I wouldn't pace like I was prevously.

"I haven't, but I should in like a week or so." I answered softly, taking a deep breath. 

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weird way to end this but i want to have the important stuff in a chapter it self

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