vogue ✧ l.hemmings

Eighteen || His Side

Luke Hemmings.

I hit her. I fucking hit the girl I have never felt strong feelings for, just because of a stupid laptop. Once that door slammed, I felt my whole world turn upside down. Inside if me, it felt dark and cold, the feelings that have numbed me until Angelina thawed the feeling away.

Angelina gave this knowledge that I had people that care other than my mother and siblings. She gives me the reassurance that people care about me. That life isn't all just business and work and money. But it's about love.

I've never felt or knew love until now. I felt a yearn and pain in my chest I couldn't describe. But I was pretty damn sure it was heart ache. My heart ached in frustration at the stupid choices I've made. I hurt the women that has dropped her everything for me, did things for me, and made me happy; what did I give her? A slap.

Disgusted is what I felt about myself. I was disgusted about what I've done. I feel like I could never forgive my self. Never.

I kneeled over and picked up the laptop and threw it across the room before storming to the kitchen, opening and slamming the cabinets till I found my right hand man. Jack Daniels. Glass in one hand and the bottle in the other, I walked back to the couch and poured myself a glass.

As I swallowed the strong whiskey, I felt something build up in my eyes. Tears. I felt them go down my cheeks. Until they where speeding down them like cars racing to the finish line, which was turned into sobbing. I need Angelina. I needed her. I need her smile. I need her love. I need her warm, small, cuddly body next to mine.

The whole night I ended up crying and drinking. I didn't notice till six a.m, the sun was shining bright today threw the glass windows. I wiped my eyes and stood up, walking to my bedroom to get to the closet.

My trembling hands, pulled my shirt over my head and fell to the ground. I grabbed one of the many white button up's, putting it on, along with a grey tie and then my jacket. The tiredness was taking over my body, I was slouching as I walked, I could feel the bags under my eyes, I felt like I could pass out. And now I had to be in an office, bossing around people for eight hours. Yay me.

* * * * * *

"Woah, dude, what happened to you?" I heard Calum say. I didn't want to look up, I felt to ashamed to look up at anyone.

"It's nothing, Calum. Has Anne came in?" I mumbled as I looked over at her empty desk. Anne looked so cute when she was working, her little hands typing away as she squirmed a little in her seat. When she listens to music while she works it's cuter than a puppy being playful to their master.

"No," He answered as he handed me coffee. "She called and said she quits. Anne also said to tell you, not to call her and don't come to her apartment. What the fuck happened?"

[i hope him and tiana have a happy life and make lots of babies - c0nstellati0ncalum ]

"I told you it's nothing!" I snapped before storming to my office, slamming the door behind me. I placed the coffee on the bookshelf, locking the door and sliding down it. My face was in my hands, I let out small sobs leave my lips. I could never show my people that I am weak. Only Anne could ever see that.

I pulled my head up and closed my eyes, Feeling my body relaxing...

"Luke? Luke open up!" A voice called my name. My eyes shot open and i stood up, unlocking and swinging the door open. I faced Angelina Woods. The girl I loved.

"Anne!" I cried and pulled her into my arms, squeezing her small body, Tears running down my cheeks. I've seriously never been this excited to see any women before.

"Luke," She chuckled and kissed my cheek. I pulled away to look at her. She smiled softly before kissing me. I kissed back, slowly and passionetly.

"Angelina Woods, You're the first girl I've ever opened up to. You give me these feelings I could never explain. I need you. You give me this happiness that I've never felt. You like the security blanket I never had as a child. You show me what a loving and caring person is. I want to be that, just like you are. I want to give you love like you do to me, because, I love you. I love you so much Angelina, I can't even explain how in love I am with you. I never want to loose that feeling because it's the best feeling I've ever felt. I'm sorry I've been rude. I'm sorry I've fucked up. I'm sorry I hit you, it's the worst choice I've ever made in my life. And I'm so, so, so sorry Anne. I'm so sorry." As the words spilled out my lips, sobs left me at the same time. I couldn't help it.

Angelina looked shocked at my words before cupping my cheeks and placing her mouth against mine. I held her tightly in my grip, pulling her into the office and slamming the door behind her. She giggled softly before biting on my bottom lip.

"Lets get out of here." She whispered before kissing me again. I smiled as we walked out and ran to my car. We got in the car, kissing and moaning softly. Hands roaming each others bodies. I swear I felt like my heart would explode any second from beating so fast.

When the car stopped and we finally arrived at my apartment we both climbed out the black Lincoln, racing to the door. Anne had reached it first and I wrapped my arms around her from behind, placing playfully kisses on her neck making her giggle and squirm in my arms.

We made our way inside to the elevator, Angelina was already trying to unbutton my shirt and loosened my tie. Once the elevator opened its doors, I picked her up, my mouth moving against hers roughly, while trying to get the door open. But to my luck, I couldn't, so Anne helped me.

The doors finally opened, I felt my heart rate slow down, everything slowed down. I walked us slowly to the bedroom, but keeping my eyes locked on Angelina's. A smile was upon her lips, pink blush crept on her pale skin. She was a wonder how damn beautiful she was.

"I love you," I whispered, pecking her lips. "I love you so much."

"I love you." She replied back in the same tone of voice. I walked into the bedroom now, dropping her onto the soft bed. I slid off my my jacket and button up off, throwing the tie somewhere.

This time, I knew it was going to be different, Because this just wasn't going to be fucking around no more, it's love.

Anne pulled me down by the neck, placing her lips on mine. I chuckled underneath my breath, before looking up at her to see her smiling big. I think we where both ready for this moment