vogue ✧ l.hemmings

Fourteen || Care & Love ♡

Angelina Woods.

Luke was acting really weird ever since he woke up and won't tell me what's wrong. He just kept making excuses over excuses, I didn't want that. I wanted the truth because I will be there with him like he will for me too. So I decided to give one last try on having Luke tell me whats going on.

I walked over to him while he was over sitting on the couch, doing something I'm guessing that was work. I sat myself down on his lap and kissed him. He didn't expect it but he kissed back, holding my chin. "Need anything?" He mumbled against our lips as is hand lingered to my thigh, his hand running up and down it.

"Yes, I do." I said before looked straight at his baby blue eyes. "I want to know whats in your mind to help you because Luke, I will always be there for you and I care about you and will be there when you need me at most because I lo-" I cut myself off and replaced it with care. I was quiet after that thinking about what I was just about to say. I love Luke. I'm in love with Luke Hemmings the crazy CEO of Vogue. I chewed on my bottom lip now and started to panic but not to show it on the outside.

What if Luke couldn't ever say it? Was this relationship even a relationship? I was worried that Luke wouldn't ever love me and feel the same way I feel for him. Because I know I do love Luke. If I didn't I wouldn't be here sitting on his lap telling that I care about and if he would just tell me already the fuck is scaring him so I can be there for him and tell him it's okay. I want to kiss it all for him and look into his ocean eyes and make sure he knows I'm here and he won't be stuck in a pit. I know something has affected him strongly but I don't what what unless Luke can open his heart just a little more to see what was in this dark man.

The CEO was as silent as me before he took a deep breath and held onto my hand. "When I was young, my father left me, my mum and my brothers at a young age," He started staring at the ground before he was looking into my dark brown eyes. "When he was still around, all there ever was in my house was pain. A lot of pain. My dad would spend all our saving on booze and when he would play cards with his other drunk friends." Luke took another deep breath, his breath was shaky this time. I knew he was getting emotional about this since it was a touchy subject and I understand it was because this was what I wanted to know. I wanted to know what haunts Luke so I can help him.

"Sometimes- Sometimes he would hit me and say all these mean things about but the day he left-" He stopped in the middle of his sentence he pulled up his shirt, revealing his back. I don't know why I never saw this but it brought me to tears at the sight of it. I kissed the small marks on his back as tears went down my cheeks. I turned Luke back to face me, seeing small tears roll off his cheeks. He wasn't crying but loose tears just spilled out his eyes. "When I was young I- I didn't get it. I still loved him even after seeing him do all these terrible things. He's tried to ask for money but I will never again because I hate him." Luke's voice grew angry now as I wiped his tears. His jaw was clenched but I rubbed the back of his neck to calm him down.

"Luke, I'm so sorry about your past. I wish I was there to be with you. Oh God, Luke." That was all I could say. I couldn't say anything else because I wasn't in his past. It was just there and it scared him. It scared him badly. I understand why it would be hard to love on Luke's point of view on love. Only because he's never felt love. It hurt that Luke may never love me but I get it.

I hugged him tight before placing a kiss on his mouth and ran my fingers threw his messy hair. "Let's do coupleish things with Tiana and Calum. Like a double date." I smiled at him. He smiled a little too before kissing me in return.

"I would probably enjoy that. Let's go get dress then, baby girl." Luke grinned back. So we both sat up and I gave Tiana a ring and it was set.

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Tiana and I where chatting away while both Luke and Calum did too. We all at a little restaurant on the quieter part of New York. Tiana and I both where drinking wine, Calum was sipping on some fancy drink I didn't know of and Luke was drinking scotch on rocks. I think it was good we where all having this little double date thing because it really did take the whole thing earlier off Luke's mind. Unless I'm wrong and is hiding his feelings; But I truly think he was okay now.

At the moment, Tiana and I where listening to Luke explain his small obsession with the bras that had the front hook instead of the back so they can start putting them in next months magazine or something like that. We both where just giggling quietly how insterested they both where about these bras.

"Anne?" Tiana asked after a while of watching them. I looked at her to let her know I had her full attention. "Was it...weird when you did it for the first time? Like your very first time?" She questioned. Nervousness laced her features definitely as she played with her glass and hid her reddening face.

"It was kinda weird to be honest but it wasn't bad." I explained until I thought why was she asking this question. "Are you a virgin?"

She started to nod slowly and drink some of her wine looking down at her lap. "Yeah, Calum wants to do it but I'm just super scared. I love him but I'm nervous that I'll be bad and he wouldn't want to be with me because of that." She explained running her fingers threw her hair a few times. "It's embarrassing I know I'm a twenty thee year old virgin."

I shook my head, "No it isn't. It's totally okay, I mean, I lost my virginity to Luke."

"Really?"

I nodded giving her a smile. "Yup, and don't worry I'm sure when you and Calum do it, you'll be fine."

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